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paatuncfan 
8:41am, March 18, 2009
i need help. i dont know what to do, i feel like everything in my world is about to come to a halt and stop. i feel like i am fighting a war and i will end up in another monster hospital.
i'm gonna end homeless in about 30 days or less...proceeding to court process now cause i owe the landlord only $440. and I cant seem to gather it. How RIDICOULOUS is that. I want to DIE all the fucking time. It could be the littlest of a problem, and my solution is right away, another thought on how can I make sure I kill myself the right way this time. Well shit, I already have a plan on what to do and seems that I am getting closer to that low point of my life all the time.
CALVERT CLIFFSSSSS......CALVERT COUNTY, MD----OVERLOOKING THE CHESAPEAKE BAY THAT I LOVE
See, if it's me writing about my suicide plan again, then I clearly need some mother fucking HELP and I am now asking for this. If any of you have a good suggestion as to what you think can help me....and if you want to know what's really wrong, just read a few previous journals and this will make sense. but if not, ask i guess i can somehow explain what led me to this downward sprial that i am on....and NO...it's not drugs or drinking.....it's my STUPID BRAIN...and the crazy and impulsive thoughts that I HAVE ALL THE TIME...WHY wont they GO AWAY? FUCK!
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Sakura
umm... i didn't know you owe any rent money. other wise i would have said come over on vacation and get some fresh air, away from everything that bothers you. you know, just for a week or so. or at least get away somewhere not far from where you live right now. i dunno... i just think that you need to get away for a bit.
bluesun
how about you throw away that suicide plan and make yourself a new plan, but this time make a plan to never make a suicide plan again, and then another one promising yourself you will hold on to your life because you know better days are near. And then make another plan on how to learn to love yourself. I just met you, I don't want to lose you! xoxo
ataraxia
You are in my thoughts, and prayers my friend. I don't want to loose you. I've lost too many friends to loose another. Keep thinking that there are going to be better times ahead. Sorry I haven't been there for you.xoxox
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