mom4's Journal

  Hi there everyone, sorry I have been MIA. I have had sick kids, crap going on at work, birthdays, and on and on.............................

  I am so glad that spring is finally here, maybe my children will get healthy again and I can get out with the kids and be more active and feel better about myself again.

  I have been in such a funk, I just cant seem to get out of it.

It has just been one thing after another and it seems like you can never get a break. On top of just everyday living.

   My baby just turned 1, my other daughter just turned 4, my second son is turning 7 soon. and then there is my beloved Jacob, My son who I love so, but makes me crazy at the same time.

 I really do worry about what the future holds for him. Sometimes it seems he will be just fine and then others I truly worry if he is going to be able to make it without me and his dad.

   He woke up this morning in tears, 2:30 am, crying, when I ask him what is wrong, he tells me he needs a kiss and a hug. I need to be honest here, I am a bit annoyed to be woken up at this time of the night for this, but then again, it is kind of heart warming at the same time. This is the same  child who didnt tell me he loved me, or hugged me until just the last year and a half ,two years. 

    Then he woke me up at 3:15am because he needed help wiping himself in the bathroom. I was about to lose it, really. Oh well, what ya going to do?

   I just wanted to let everyone know I am alive and I am sorry I have been absent but Life got really rough for a bit and I'm hoping after tomorrow it will get better.

    I am going to the Dr., I have been having headaches and dizzy spells, chest pains, everyone I have talked to say's its stress, I cant imagine why I would be stressed!!!!LOL

  But anyway, I'm goig to the doc and hopefully I will start feeling better.

   I hope you are all well and I will try to stay in touch more. I know I have a few messages to answer.

take care!!!

                   melissa