mom4's Journal

    Well, I have had an absolutely crappy week and I just keep hoping it will get better. I have a coworker out on vacation at work, and I'm the only one covering her schedule which I think is a bunch of shit. I am the only one in my dept. with small children and 4 of them to boot,  but it is of no importance for me to get home on time at all, even though I am still nursing a baby!

  I call my son Caelens teacher today to talk to her about my sons writing, only to find out he has been misbehaving, tearing up his supplies, goofing off etc.......

  I have asked him what is going on with him only to get nothing! I dont know if he is acting out because of Jacobs problems or what.

 This is the same child who left the baby gate open on Thursday and stormed out of the house only for the baby to fall down the stairs and have to be taken to the doctor.

  Thank god she is ok but she had a couple of bumps on the head and some bruises but thankfully that is all. I tried to explain how serious this could have been but I dont know if I even got across to him.

  I think I was more upset than the baby was but it scared me to death, and of course I wasnt home, I was working.

  All this because his father told him he couldnt go to this boys house down the street that we dont know. I am sorry but in this day and age I dont want my kids in people's houses that I dont know who they are or where they are. Is that unreasonable??

  I am sick and tired of fighting for everything, or fighting about everything, I am sick and tired of struggling, and people being unkind , inconsiderate, and selfish. I am tired of it all!!!!

Damn it!

 I am sorry to all of you that I am on a rant. I guess I just need to vent and cry and let it all out.

  It will get better, I hope.

  Thanks for letting me bitch. I am just worn out I guess.

  Hope you are all well, goodnight.