mom4's Journal

    Well, its been awhile since I have written so I've got a few minutes now to put some things down.

  I have come to a kind of cross roads with Jacob. I dont like the Dr. he is seeing, I think he's all for pushing meds and his EEG therapy which I cant afford and not much of anything else. So, my mother took it upon herself to contact this place called the Star center that only deals and treats children with autism and autism spectrum disorders. At first I was a little put out because I think my mom puts her 2 cents in a lot and somtimes it upsets me but she is only trying to help. I have to try to remember that, instead of getting mad. She knows what a hard time Jacob is giving my husband and I and how upsetting it is with his behavior.

So,I have called this place and they are sending me the forms to get him enrolled in this program, and they have sliding scale and financial scholarships to  help pay for things. I have health insurance but they dont cover much for what you pay for it. So i'm hoping they can give us the help we need because the other is just not working.

 Besides the fact that I am really tired of calling them about thing that they are supposed to call me about, like the fact that Jacobs last appt. was the 15th of Dec. and he wants Jacob to have this quantitive eeg but couldnt find the number for the doctor and said he would call me. Well, lets put it this way he didnt call me I've called him twice now and he still DOESNT have the damn number but he's looking. Come on!!!!!

Besides my issues with Jacob I have another Issue to deal with. My baby Is going to be a year old soon and I am breastfeeding still but I know I need to start cutting down on it so she will eat more solid food, problem is, she's my last baby and it breaks my heart to have to stop nursing. Granted I  will continue to nurse her to put her to sleep and of course I'm not going to stop nursing yet but the thought of it makes me sad. I dont want anymore children she is my 4th and final but I dont want this special time to be over with already.....I cant believe she is going to be a year old already in a little over a month. Time has flown by..........................

Of course then there's the husband who is asking me how long it will take before my milk dries up after I stop and when I ask him why???? He's like, I dont know just wondering...... Well, I know why he is wondering because as long as I am nursing they are off limits to him and he knows it!!! He's not fooling anyone. I told him just because I cut her feedings down doesnt mean i'm done and I will still nurse her at bed time so its going to be awhile. I think I heard a hint of disappointment in his voice.LOL he will get over it he's a big boy.

  Well, its almost time to go home so I'm going to git!!! I hope you all have a great night and take care...........................Melissa