Journal

well, I have hit the 55 pd mark.

Who knew it could feel this good???

I still have a ways to go but I feel so good and buying clothes to wear and NOT hide in is the best!!!

no longer do I drowned myself in over size shirts and big pants.

Sometimes I look in the mirror and cant believe that is me.

When I get to my goal weight I will probably just have a total breakdown. The whole process has been an emotional experience. More so than I ever thought.

Well, time to start on the next 50!!!!!

I hope you all have a great weekend and I will write more soon.

Take care everyone!!!

  I am stressed!!! My husband is going to drive back home tomorrow by himself to take care of some affairs of his dads. I really wish I could go with him to be there for him but the boys start school Wednesday and my mother has guilted me into not taking them out the first 2days to go. I am so torn....., I want to be with him, he want s me to be with him, UGH!!! Why did school have to start already??? On the other hand it is silly to take the boys out of school to travel in the car for 2 days and only be in NY for 1 day. I think they would be a little stir crazy going through that.

  We have gotten so much closer since his father passed away. I guess it really makes you think about the people in your life and what they mean to you.

  On a good note, we have been making love like we might forget how.

not that I will complain about it. and being thinner has definitely helped there too!!!

  I just hate for him to drive all that way alone and have to deal with his bitch mother alone and drive home alone!! too much alone!!!

  He has already said he just wants this over so he can come home and be with us and our life and get back to normal and move forward. He needs some closure.... I hope he finds it.

  He said this will be it for him going home. there is nothing else for him to go home too anymore. His father was the only reason to go back in the first place.

   And of course when he called she was asking if the kids were coming, uh, duh!! for 1 day and they are starting school... hell no!! even if we did go the kids would not be involved, they dont even know my oldest son has Aspergers or anything, that is how involved and concerned they are. UGH!!

 I think my husband was abducted, he is nothing like them. They are selfish, self serving, nasty people!!!! They have been horrible to me and barely bother with the kids. Oh well, I cant start on that or I will be here all day.....

 Just please keep my husband  in your thoughts and prayers that everything goes ok and he returns home to me safe and sound.....

  I hope all my friends are well, take care and talk to you soon.......Melissa