Lynne72's Journal

I made such a fool of myself yesterday.  There I was holding my son, with my daughter and husband beside me ordering lunch, when an "innocent" comment had me on the brink of tears at a fast food restaurant.  (Granted I have been very emotional lately, which probably explains a lot.)  The person at the counter made the observation that "Wow, that's a pretty big age difference between the two of them", refering to my children.  I felt like I had been punched in the face, and stood stunned.  Everything came rushing back to me.  I managed to mumble something about my son being long awaited, and walked very quickly to the rest room.  Where I cried over the sink for 5 minutes.

I wanted to be mad, to think of him (the waiter) as an idiot, it would have been easier, but I couldn't.  He had know idea, he was just making conversation.  Even my husband had a little bit of a reaction, flinched a bit when we talked about it afterward.  Just when you start to feel a bit better ...