I am scared out of my mind. I am …
I am scared out of my mind. I am the oldest of 8 children and I have 4 children of my own. I just started college and …
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Lynne72 
I got snapped back to "reality": I recieved a frantic phone call this morning from my pregnant friend. She was completely freaking out, she had started spotting. (She's okay, ultrasound on Thursday to check everything.) It put everything into perspective though. It zapped the anger and resentment right out of me. For the first time in a few days, I wasn't thinking about myself.
I don't feel guilty for being jealous, I think it's pretty "normal". But I'm not especially proud either. I guess it's easier to feel angry then to feel sad, and lonely or even face that I won't get what I want. I'm not going to get to hold them no matter how loud I yell, how much I cry, or how hard I pray. In spite of how it sounds, I'm actually doing a bit better today.
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how scary ,and what an awakoning ,Like you said its natural to feel as you did but now you can just be happy for her and disconct your greif from her pregnacy.....
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Everything u are feeling is completely normal..U are so strong!! hang in there..I'm glad your friend and her baby is ok..
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