blondie073's Journal

Do you know what you've done to me? After all those days we spent together, all the times you texted me and called me, all the times you told me we'd be friends forever, and then you talk to me on msn and say "I don't think we should be friends anymore"?

How was I supposed to feel? Don't you know that friendships aren't about happiness? It's about being strong together. It's about sticking together when you hit a rough patch. It's about fighting for each other. We had something. Both of us knew it. Don't ignore it. We should've fought. I was willing, but I was hurt. You hurt me so much.

I've been reading our conversations. One day, we were best friends and laughing and talking about hair dye, You said you'd let me choose your hair colour. We were laughing. The next day you said you needed time apart from me and you needed space. One. Day. It changed so much.

You see, I miss you. But I don't know if I'd like the girl you are now. I can't be sure. I know I liked most of the girl you used to be, but she had her flaws. I want to go back to last year and do it all over again. Then I'd still be friends with Tai and I'd still be friends with you. Then I wouldn't hurt so much. Then I would be happy. And maybe I wouldn't be sick. Just maybe...

Can you come back to me please? PLEASE? Can you please be my friend again? I just want grade 9 back. I want friendships back. I can't deal with this. I miss everyone.

I'm so sad. I want you all back I want it to last forever, what we all had. I don't want to fall for anyone or be hurt by anyone. I loved you and I loved Tai and both of you said you loved me too... then you left me.