blondie073's Journal

123 days today.

I'm mad at Polly, Tai's mom. She went to the school and told the vice-principal and the guidance counsellor that I was spreading rumours about her son that he was abusing me, and that I was lying and would lie to them. I know the guidance counsellor won't believe her, but the v-p already hates me for the Katie thing and ditching class, so she'll use anything against me. Fucking bitch.

I only have 6 days of school left. I'm really sad, actually. I thought I'd be super sad, because this is Tai's last year in Canada, but now that he's saying I'm lying, I'm not so sad. What I'm really sad about is the decision to leave my school. I want to go to Malvern, but I like Rosedale as well. Most people have said that I should stay at Rosedale, and when someone said Rosedale wasn't a good school for me because the academics are bad and there's drugs, I got all defensive. I think I might stay at Rosedale. At least for another year. Rowan, my little brother, talked to me today and said: "I think you should stay at Rosedale." I asked him why, and he said: "Remember how you said Rosedale was better than Malvern? And I don't want you to leave Emma. She wouldn't leave you." I really thought about this. I always knew Rosedale was where I belonged, but the vp already hates me and the principal is a freak and I've already ruined so much at Rosedale.... but if I leave I can never come back.

The summer always makes me sad. It means one more school year is over and I'm one year closer to freedom. The thought scares me of leaving school forever and going to university. It also scares me to think about never coming home again. Summer is so depressing for me, because I know it's only 2 months vacation and then I'm back starting another year, which will end even quicker. I'm still in denial that grade 6 is over. That was 3 years ago.

Oh well. 123 days. I'm getting there.