blondie073's Journal

I JUST HAPPEN TO HAVE MADE IT TO DAY 100!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so proud of myself. I set a goal and I completed it. I'm going to go for 200. I promise.

It was really hard for me, and I got really bitchy, but guess what? My arm works again!

Before, I think I damaged some nerves, and I couldn't properly use the arm I cut on. Now I can use it for so much!

Dancing has helped me so much. I've been working hard for our big show, Lord of the Flies, which is going to be huge. I love dancing so much. It's made me feel so much more confident about my body. I'm in a French Play about Vegas for our Fringe Festival, and I actually dressed up as a Playboy Bunny, without a second thought. I am happy with my body. Dancing has made me feel like I can do anything, because I've seen how far I've come since the beginning of the year.

Drama has helped me through it, too. In my drama class, we get to do scenes all the time, and we have an amazing teacher who teaches us the best techniques and cares about her students. I am really happy because I've seen how far I've come since I decided I wanted to act last year. I am actually pretty good, and I can even act in real life now, too, but not around my best friend. She's too special for me to lie to her.

My baby, Emma, has helped me more than she'll ever know. I am so proud of her for becoming this amazing girl in the few months I've known her. She is so comfortable with who she is and she isn't afraid to scream on the subway: "I LIKE SKA!" because that's who she is. She's taught me to love myself and care for myself and want to live and for that, she is my hero.

I am proud of myself, so proud of myself, for realizing how horrible my addiction is and for stopping myself even when it was really hard. I hope that others can do this, too.

Thank you, everyone, who's given me support. I've made it. And I'm not stopping here.