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mickeyg 
Hello Everyone...
Once again it's been quite awhile since I've posted anything...I should try to get to my journal more often so I can let go of some of the negative things i've been feeling...I have so much in my life to be greatlful for...Yet I screw up all of the time...Like with our bank account...I have it so screwed up it's not even funny...We are going on our cruise in 8 days & because of my forgetting to minus a $200 check from our account, we are severely overdrawn & I dont know what the hell to do...I took a direct deposit advance on our account for $500 to make up for the other advances that I had taken, & wel...I have just got us dug into such a freakin hole that I cant see the light at the end of the tunnel...Does anyone have any suggestions?I'm shaking, having massive anxietyy attacks, feel like im gonna crawl right out of my skin...I could just really use some good advice right now...Thanks...
God Bless You All...Michelle
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Well, here I am again...Feeling scared shitless because of what my work comp people are trying to do to me...As you all know by now, I was scheduled to gto intpo a full deyox at Stanford medical on 6/25/07...I re-arranged my whole life to accomodate that date, & now they are telling me that they want me to go in to a facility here in Fresno within the next 2wks...HOW!?!? We are leaving on our cruise on 6/8-6/11, & in addition to all of that, I have several appointments & commitments that I HAVE to take care of...Any suggestions? Please pray for me that they will allow me to go in on 6/12...I love you all...
Michelle
Michelle
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oh Michelle, I'm so sorry to hear that they are changing everything on you. i hope that you can explain how you have moved all your plans around to accommodate the original date. good luck, and i will pray for you.........debbie
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Thanks Deb & Angel girl...I really appreciate your support & prayers...I was scared that they wouldn't "allow" me to go when I NEED to, but you know what? I have jumped thru their hoops for the last 5 years, & just this once by God~their gonna compromise with me...I have done what they wan-when they want-how they want for a VERY long time...Im not asking for much, & im not asking because it's something that I "want"...I NEED to go in on 6-12...So, im gonna just stand my ground & TELL them that I WILL NOT be doing it any sooner...I am a GOOD person...I am willing to do whatever they want me to do, I am, just this once...telling them that i am going when it works for me...What do ya'll think? Is that wrong of me?? I dont think so...But please give me your opinion, as I value it dearly...Thanks...Love you...
Michelle
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Bless you,I hate insurance companies and the control they exert over us. you wil be in my thoughts, you deserve the best.
Deb
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DO WHAT WORKS FOR YOU
DEB
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Stand up to them if at all possible.You do have right,i take it you do have an attorney working this with you correct? pls let me know how you make out,you are the first i have seen forced to go through this so I really want to know. bless you and I will be thinking of you. Pls pls let me know how you do. Thank you.Bless you,
Deb
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Michelle, I would tell them what you have told us. They have us jumping through hoops at their will and it is okay to stand up for yourself. I have never heard of anyone having to go through what they are making you do. It will be rough enough, they can accomidate you and I would make sure they are not making you go through this cold turkey. That is just cruel, there are meds to help you go through this. My daughter was on this, but I forget the name of it. I will find out if you want me to. Just let me know.
Hello Family...
Well...Things have been pretty freaken crazy to say the very least...My phone isnt working for one thing, & I have missed several calls from people that I love...Pammy-whammy...I love you sweetie & im ok...My daughter & son-in-law surprised me Fri. night & showed up for a 3day visit...My son is really having some emotional issuse right now that I dont understand...We are damn near broke-AGAIN...Im almost out of suckers-AGAIN...I just am having a tough time right now...I go to Stanford on 6-25 for my 8wk detox process...I think that is what has me as jangled up inside as I am...Fearing that my docs arent gonna want to give me enough meds to make it through till then...I dont know why they wouldnt...It's just that ol dope fiend thinkin I guess...LOL Anyhow, I am in an EXTRA-ORDINARY amount of pain right now...thanks to the weather...How am I gonna make it with no meds you guys? I just cant fathom it at this point...Pray for me...Love you all...
Michelle
aka-Shell-Bell
Well...Things have been pretty freaken crazy to say the very least...My phone isnt working for one thing, & I have missed several calls from people that I love...Pammy-whammy...I love you sweetie & im ok...My daughter & son-in-law surprised me Fri. night & showed up for a 3day visit...My son is really having some emotional issuse right now that I dont understand...We are damn near broke-AGAIN...Im almost out of suckers-AGAIN...I just am having a tough time right now...I go to Stanford on 6-25 for my 8wk detox process...I think that is what has me as jangled up inside as I am...Fearing that my docs arent gonna want to give me enough meds to make it through till then...I dont know why they wouldnt...It's just that ol dope fiend thinkin I guess...LOL Anyhow, I am in an EXTRA-ORDINARY amount of pain right now...thanks to the weather...How am I gonna make it with no meds you guys? I just cant fathom it at this point...Pray for me...Love you all...
Michelle
aka-Shell-Bell
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im so sorry that your having such a hard time right now.I will be praying for you and your family.ya know i was reading your posts and i thought oh my why are they going to do that to her take her off of everything and then i read about getting your life back.and a flash came over me about my "old" live and it brought tears to my eyes.how I long for those days so much.I am so happy for you that you get the chance to start over, nto all of us can so you should be rejoicing not threatened.I wish for you the best and hope you do get a new drug free no pain life. love, katie
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Shell I wanted to tell you how much our phone call yesterday meant to me. I was so worried about you, and our phone conversation put me at ease. I know you are a fighter!! You will make it through all of this tribulation. You will come out of this a stronger woman, wife, mother and friend. I would like for all of us prayer warriors to join in together to pray for Shell. She is extrememly worried about the big change going to be taking place soon. So lets give Shell our prayers!! Allow the Lord to have His hand in this!! Shell, I love ya and you mean the world to me, and I am sure others feel the same way. Love Ya!!Pam
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What about taking a cash advance on a credit card and putting the money back in your bank account. At least that way you can make small monthly payments to get caught up.
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Hi!Shel, what about going to your bank and asking for a second chance loan. My bank has done that for me. What they do is give you a loan for the amount that you are in the hole for. THen you make 4 payments of what the amount borrowed is. THese payments are once a month. That way you are out of the hole and not charged any interest for it.
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