I Am The Eggman!
August 11, 2009 12:06am
I've grown up to be someone i love.
I remember someone, i can't remember who, they told me that no one is gorgeous at 14, and no is as …
HugsWelcome
5:55pm, March 4, 2009
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About Me
HugsWelcome
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About Me
Hello, i'm haley, I'm nearly 17 years old. The biggest thing in my life is social anxiety disorder, and I deal with that on my own, and most people never need to know I have a problem. Someday I want to be a writer, and I don't plan on seeking higher education, partially because of my anxiety and partially because I dont feel it's the path god made for me. I lost god for three years after i lost my sister, and now he's back, and I feel like I am too.
Hello, i'm haley, I'm nearly 17 years old. The biggest thing in my life is social anxiety disorder, and I deal with that on my own, and most people never need to know I have a problem. Someday I want to be a writer, and I don't plan on seeking higher education, partially because of my anxiety and partially because I dont feel it's the path god made for me. I lost god for three years after i lost my sister, and now he's back, and I feel like I am too.
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Interests
Music, friends, laughing, reading, writing, kindness, designing, history, etc.
Music, friends, laughing, reading, writing, kindness, designing, history, etc.
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I Can't Stand Who I Was
March 4, 2009 6:15pm
I mean, I was trying so hard to be my own person that i was willing to ruin myself to do it, just so people would really be able to say "Wow, …
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wtf.
July 9, 2008 1:21am
I'm angry.
That's pretty easy to say.
I mean... I dont deserve herpes! I've never even KISSED anyone, and now i'll feel guilty about …
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i've been somewhere new
March 15, 2008 10:45pm
&& it's called highschool.
It's going OK.
my mom took me to see someone. but i stopped going. the therapist didn't understand …
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Journal Entry for October 9, 2007
October 9, 2007 7:12pm
ok newsnewsnews got my comp taken away... :/ bad grades:// so yeah, i wont be on much. just thot u should knoww and i'm finally …
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Support Groups
Close Eating Disorders
Type: BulimiaPeople have always made fun of me for my weight "issues". So i decided to change that, and I stopped eating Breakfast this year, then after school, i skipped dinner.
Open Insomnia
I don't sleep. It's not on purpose, I just can't ever get to sleep. And apparently taking sleep meds scares my mom... Oh, well. Coffee anyone?
Treatments
- Music Not Working
- Ok, just because my music is all rock, it doesn't work.
- Counting Sheep Not Working
- Yeah, that just got obnoxious.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
I feel unloved in every relationship I've ever been in, even sometimes my friendships. My parents, and other people, don't understand that words hurt, so when they call me names, as a "joke" It hurts. People make fun of me for stupid reasons. Most abuse is emotional, but sometimes my mom is a little too rough, and doesn't stop when I say stop. My family can really make me hate myself sometimes, and I partially blame them for my problems, seeing as they're the reason I feel worthless.
Open Dizziness & Vertigo
I get these weird times, when my vision goes black, and I lose my balance. It's strange, I fall a lot.
Open Color Blindness
I dont see some colors. It sucks, b/c someone will try to show me something pretty like a colorful flower, and it looks like a normal flower.
Open Phobia
Type: Social PhobiaI have a huge fear of the dark. I blame the goosebumps books. :] I'm also terrified of being the center of attention, or having to talk to people I don't know. Being shy is so much easier.
Treatments
- Acceptance Too Soon to Tell
- Acceptance is the first step to recovery. I think by accpeting the fact I'm scared of things that are ridiculous I can eventually get over them.
Open Internet Addiction
I use the computer ALL the time. I seriously even tell my friends I'm not allowed places, b/c I'm in the middle of a really good story on quizilla. It's sick, and I'm getting better at not basing everything off it.
Open Shyness
I don't speak unless I know the people around me. At school dances I don't dance [Mainly because I can't dance]. I'm the "quiet one" and people don't "get" me.
Open Self-Injury
I cut, and i know, i'm stupid for doing so. But, i'd do anything for releif. & it helps.
Open Caregivers
okay, I dont take care of anybody physically, but I really do make sure my friends dont break down. That counts right?
Treatments
- Listening Working / Worked
- really, if someone has a problem...listen. if they're willing to talk abotu it, it's big.
Open Bereavement - Teens
my grandpa died when I was 3 months old, my neighbor died when i was 6 or 7, my uncle died when i was 8, my grandma died when I was 11, and my sister recently passed away when I was 13.
Treatments
Open Abstinence & Celibacy
I'm waiting as long as possible. I know, big whoop I'm really young right now it's not that hard. But a lot of kids my age around my neighborhood are already doing it, and stealing cars to go do it, and doing it at school. And it's crazy, so I'm gonna make like the good catholic my grandma would want me to be, and wait.
Open High School Stress
this is my first year of highschool, and the amount of oral presentations we are expected to perform is tearing up my insides.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Considering
- my mom finally acted like she cared and called. but they wont have me in until october 8.
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- everyone think's it's a stage
Open Oral Herpes
I was recently diagnosed with oral herpes. sucks.
