What an odd week
September 17, 2009 8:06pm
My parents party whent fantastic, but my cousin's, girlfriend was killed in a car accident. We went to her wake and funeral Tuesday and …
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defenderdarksun
5:59pm, August 28, 2009
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About Me
defenderdarksun
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About Me
My name is Emily. I live and love New England. Served in the Air Force as a Security Forces Officer. I just go laid off, and am board with nothing to do. I'm simple, enjoying the little things rather than over-sized forced entertainment. ------------------------------"Defending those who can not defend themselves."------------- I'm a Roman Catholic (and if you don't like it, I DONT CARE so back off), I enjoy my faith, but don't worry I'm not one to push it on others. I love to brag about my family because I believe they are the greatest family ever! I refuse to let things define me, and chose to take a stand for what is right even if I stand alone. I love people because theres nothing the same about any one person as there is with another. I'm one of the most easy going people you will ever meet. I don't let things get to me because I figure it's only life and I can take on the world with God, family and friends with me.
My name is Emily. I live and love New England. Served in the Air Force as a Security Forces Officer. I just go laid off, and am board with nothing to do. I'm simple, enjoying the little things rather than over-sized forced entertainment. ------------------------------"Defending those who can not defend themselves."------------- I'm a Roman Catholic (and if you don't like it, I DONT CARE so back off), I enjoy my faith, but don't worry I'm not one to push it on others. I love to brag about my family
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flying, writing, reading, people watching, hiking, boating, skiing, winter, going to the ocean in the rain at high tide, godfather, well most mob flicks
flying, writing, reading, people watching, hiking, boating, skiing, winter, going to the ocean in the
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YYYYYEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSss
September 14, 2009 2:16am
We pulled it off! Everything went great! The weather held out wonderfully, 70 people showed up, brought food and gifts! It was wonderful! Mom is so …
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TOMARROW!
September 12, 2009 8:51pm
THE PARTY IS TOMARROW! I'M WICKED NERVIOUS! THE INTROVERTED SHY ME WAS ABLE TO CORDINATE OVER 70 PEOPLE TOGETHER FOR A PARTY FROM AT LEAST 3 …
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This is a poem im working on for my parents
September 5, 2009 11:11pm
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Together you are AND
Your marriage is all about AND
You AND me, Lover AND friend
Diane AND Michael, Michael AND Diane
To have AND to hold, for …
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Sorry
If any friends see this, i cant access this account and had to make a new one defenderinfaith, please come find me!
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how are u
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how can a person be everywhere and nowhere, if you are not there or if you are there,,, then that could make it past tense.
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*hugs and never lets go*
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um aren't everywhere and nowhere oppisite,, how are you gonna travel to the future, if yur not there, but somewhere..
if your somewhere aren't you alredy there cause yur in the present future,,
but if yur no where how could you be there cause you should be in the past
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Support Groups
Close Bipolar Disorder
I have bipolar diorder. The Air Force said I was BP and discharged me from duty, with Honorable Discharge. Being in the Air Force was a dream I had had sense I was small, getting kicked out shook everything I had. I felt as though I'd failed myself, my family, and my country. I've getting better thanks to friends here.
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- Lamictal Somewhat Helpful
- I'm not so sure.
- Seroquel Somewhat Helpful
- Not so sure...
Close Self-Injury
I cut to make the pain be somewhere other than inside myself. I cut if I feel like I'm loosing control at all I would purposefully brake glasses and make it look like an accident. This way I could cut myself without getting caught. Or cut old wounds and say I was a slow healer. Or punch the hell out of myself just to feel
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- Abstinence Somewhat Helpful
- not doing it but wanting to makes it hard...
Open Blindness & Visual Impairment
My mom had an allergic reaction to mold spores causing her to have scar tissue form over her retnias. It's genetic and I'm terrified of becomeing blind.
Treatments
- Surgery Working / Worked
- it worked to an extent, she has one eye and no depth perception.
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- It helps me...she's not on here...
Open Migraine Headaches
I get massive migrains at least twice a week that just knock me out for anywhere between several hours to days.
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
Open Insomnia
My sleeping is like waiting for a blue moon. I might catch a few mins here and there but I go for weeks without sleep. I take meds but its a fine line for it to work because if I don't stay on a shedual I wont sleep. My bipolar will effect it to. When depressed I'll sleep to much and when manic I wont sleep for up to fifteen days.
Treatments
- Ambien Somewhat Helpful
- It kind of helps but it takes a long time and if I miss it once I get so thrown off it's like I never was on it.
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
Open Dyslexia
I have always struggled with dyslexia and was diagnosed in the fifth grade. Reading and writing are hard for me, even reading out loud is had. Because of it I was always shy and withdrawn for fear of being wrong all the time. My dad and my aunt on my moms side have also been diagnosed.
Treatments
- Reading Working / Worked
- I try reading and writing all the time, looking up things making patters out of everything so I can learn it.
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
Open Shyness
I've always been resered and shy. A lot of the time it is because I don't want people to think I'm stupid or slow. I hide so people don't make fun of me which causes me to have very few friends.
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
Open Guillain-Barre Syndrome (GBS)
My grandfather is recovering and is starting to walk again. He got it twice and nearly died both times. I wasn't home and feel guilty about not being able to help, but I don't know.
Treatments
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- we are all there to support him and he's getting better.
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- again for me...he's not on here...
Open Military Families
My grandfather was Navy 22 years, I served in the Air Force. I have a lot of military friends, and no matter who runs the country I support the troops.
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
Open Lactose Intolerance
I've been Lactose Intolerant sense I can remember, and when I was young I was once hospitalized for a week because of what I ate at a family reunion.
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- Just can't have some of the "fun" foods everyone else gets to have.
- Lactaid Not Working
- It didn't reall help a whole lot and the flavor sucks!
- Lactose-Free Diet Working / Worked
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
Open Sports Injuries
Type: Shin SplintsI do all those things they tell you to prevent but its been over a year and they wont go away and have gotten worse. I get pain all the way up to my hip.
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
Open Families & Friends of Gays & Lesbians
I'm not gay/lesbian, but some of my friends are... thats it...enough said.
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
Open Tinnitus
My ears ring all the time, sometimes getting to the point I can’t hear anything else. They hurt almost all the time, too. Sometimes when they get bad I can get dizzy and unbalanced, especially in elevators or change in altitude. I try ignoring it but that doesn’t help any.
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
Open Meniere's Disease
If I do have this thing...I'm afraid of going deaf...
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
- Patience Not Working
- not doing anything does not make it get better...
Open Personality Disorders
Type: Schizotypal Personality DisorderOne of many next
Treatments
- DailyStrength Working / Worked
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