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GeorgiaW 
8:17pm, August 10, 2009
43 years ago today I had a baby girl, she was soft and pink with strawberry fuzz on her head, I named her Brandi Sue and she lived for just a few minutes...Brandi was a preemie and her little lungs were not developed enough for her to stay with us but she has remained here in my heart all these years..
It doesn't seem to matter how long you have a child, a day or 33 years, once they attach themselves to your heart nothing can change that.
Today was also my late MIL's birthday, not sure how old Juneal would be if she were still alive...Alzheimers took her four or five years ago, just a year or so before we discovered Neal had inheirted the disease from her. So far he seems to be the only one of his siblings to have done so, I guess this is a blessing for them but sure doesn't seem fair to me since he was the one they all shit on while he was a kid. No that's not true, his oldest sister is an angel and I've always been sure she was a changling, the rest are such self centered assholes I can't believe Neal and Sherry are related to them.
Winter saw the doctor and he put her on allergy meds and is trying something for restless leg syndrome to see if that will help clear up her head and let her get some sleep. She really downplayed her depression when she was there and that is stupid I think....she thinks it is all the stress from work (she's in denial about the idiot boyfriend and how he affects her moods)...I say we know depression "runs" in the family and the stress just makes the whole thing harder to deal with.
I guess she told him that I need to be on something for stress/depression because she thinks I'm about to lose it. She doesn't get that 90% of the time I'm just fine until she comes down and goes into a long rant about all the crap at work and the fighting with Justin, some days just seeing her coming down the driveway is enough to make my stomach clench...she wants me to listen and not say anything or try to fix anything...that is not my nature....I'm a warrior at heart and if I can't fix it I'm frustrated and angry...she should know this about me, she does know this but can't see where not being able to be myself causes problems when it comes to her and her issues.
Ah well, on a brighter note, got my Solstice/Christmas decorations just about taken care of...still wondering where our snow is, we've been up into the upper 30s and lower 40's the last few days, rained like hell the other night, enough to fill a 55 gallon barrel under the drip line and it's been windy, 45MPH yesterday, only about 20 today so it's barely noticeable. Dark grey clouds but not snow...at least it is not freezing and killing my plants...feels almost like fall in some other part of the country.
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i am sory for ur loss...and i know about all of that craziness in family's..i am so glad i don't have that in-law problem but all in all i have to wonder why it doesnt bother my hubbie..his sister did come once and tried to call once..not bad for my 33 years of mariage..lol then one dy the phone rings and it is the att operator telling me that this aperson is looking for me nd can they give her my number..i said hell no! i find out it is her(sister)Her hubbie(x) worked for the ph,co and he was able to call me but not give her the number..i was livid..i reported him for using his influence as a att worker to do this,invade my privacy..hubbie did call her back.she was angry with me and told hubbie al baout it and he came to my defence and hung up..las ttime we heward from her and that was like 15 years ago...and if winter doesn't want to to react like anormal mother then perhaps she ought to quit talking to you BOUT HIM
seems to me she is asking and reaching out to you for advice..but it really isnt advice she need's...lol
ladyjeanne
Well according to Winter, and others I've heard about, it is supposed to be a female trait to listen and give sympathy when there are problems and it is the male model to want to rip off heads and find solutions to the problem...I seem to be more male when it comes to things like this...Winter says she knows drqag queens wiht more estorgen then I have, LOL
GeorgiaW
I had to laugh at your last comment there, Georgia. But talk about stereotyping. Who says women are "supposed to be" anything. And I guess our kids (mine included) have an idea of what a mother should be - or what they want them to be. And, from my view, we can only be ourselves.
But it does sound like this has been a rather rough day for you - as is this whole time of year. And that has to be very hard. I guess my family has been very fortunate - at least in that regard.
I'm glad you got your decorations up. I know how much you like them. And they are cheery. I don't put decorations up any more and yet sometimes wish I had.
As for the weather, believe it or not it was in the 90s here today. And looks like that will be about the same the rest of this week. And it is pretty late in the year for the temps to be so high here.
IDK, maybe I'll be wishing for some snow here if it doesn't cool down soon.
Well, at least Winter did get some meds and hopefully she will be feeling better soon. And you too!
♥ Love ya, Chris
ChrisAz