Starting a new journey
April 10, 2009 12:42pm
Well today I am on day 4 competely off of all drugs and alcohol...I have been going to AA meetings for three days and met some cool people. I have …
white20blue
2:06pm, August 27, 2008
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About Me
white20blue
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About Me
I am back in Cali and trying to get back on my feet. I was homeless for about a week and chose to come back home. I was trying to be independent and not rely on my parents but all my plans fell through in TX so back to Cali it is. I am still looking for a EMDR therapist and a GID therapist. Wish me luck.
I am back in Cali and trying to get back on my feet. I was homeless for about a week and chose to come back home. I was trying to be independent and not rely on my parents but all my plans fell through in TX so back to Cali it is. I am still looking for a EMDR therapist and a GID therapist. Wish me luck.
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Interests
Line dancing, bowling, air hockey, singing, watching movies, talking about finances, horse-back riding, wall climbing, "chillin with da homies" (jk), going to plays, watching Harry Potter, and having new friendships.
Line dancing, bowling, air hockey, singing, watching movies, talking about finances, horse-back riding,
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Relapse
February 18, 2009 12:43pm
Well I got loaded yesturday and it wasnt worth it, and I knew it wasnt going to be. I am sick and have thrown up, and got burned for 20 dollars, and …
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Just another friday
February 13, 2009 4:08pm
Today I feel good, working is slow but that is ok because I have a job...I went to a meeting last night and got some numbers and I will be going to a …
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Hi. Many big hugs for you. I hope you start to feel better. StacyDianna
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So happy things are finally going well for you. Stay strong!!!
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Long time, but still thinking about you!
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Support Groups
Close Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
I was raped when I was 8 yrs. old for 3 years. I have PTSD, and been in treatement on and off since I was 12 yrs. old.
Treatments
- EMDR Working / Worked
- did it one time and I didnt finish it and so it set me off. It helped me though.
- Paxil Working / Worked
- helped me when I was on it for about 1 yr.
- Rape Counseling Working / Worked
- works while I am in it but my lack of memory doesnt let me get through the next set of issues.
- Supportive Care Working / Worked
- I went through emotional training at a emotional growth boarding school and was able to "hit out" a lot of the anger and pain. I went to Spring Ridge Academy
Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a FriendI met my friend and ex Rae in N.A. and we started dating. We eventually split since I didnt want to be as serious but were still friends. I relapsed and so did she. She called me one night and wanted to pick up. I gave her my connects number and never called me back. Her daughter called me the next morning because she had a bad feeling and couldnt get a hold of her mom. she ended going to her moms house and found her dead in her condo.
Treatments
- Crying Working / Worked
- helps me let it out.
- Prayer Working / Worked
- sometimes but it is hard to trust God
- Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Somewhat Helpful
- they are helping me forgive myself and realize it was her choices and not mine that brought her to this conclusion
Open Transgender
Pre T/OP FTM looking for therapist, told parents I dont think they get it but are supportive as long as I stay clean, emotionally stable, living a righteous life. Some of my friends know but I havent started telling people at church. I put christian on my app's at work in ". I just want to move forward and I am scared of hwo my church fam will react. (I am mormon) I think they will still be cool but it will be hard. My chick doesnt care either way. She says I am still the same person. I am lucky
Open Heroin Addiction & Recovery
I started using a few years ago and just relapsed after being clean almost a year and now my wife may be divorcing me. I go on and off. I never do it for a long time just till my veins get soar and then I start again for no reason.
Treatments
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- it was very supportive and successful when I went to it. I have to much shame now. I need a sponsor. I havent been clean that long
Open Lesbian Relationship Challenges
(We are getting divorced)I have married to my wife and been with her for 2 yrs. I have lied and cheated on her and we are working it out. But now she is over it and getting legally seperated.
Open Sexual Abuse
I was molested when I was 8 for 3 yrs. from a family friend who lived with us from church. he went to jail for a short time and now he lives in los angeles in ca
Treatments
- EMDR Working / Worked
- I always start and then it gets to intense and I relapse. I have never finished it out.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I was there for about 1 yr and it went well. I let out anger with Rick that I didnt know what there. I met great friends and healed a lot.
Open Breakups & Divorce
Well my wife (we are seperated) has a girlfriend now for atleast 6mos-8mos and we are going to be getting a divorce. We are trying to be friends which sucks for me but I am trying to move on with my life and not torture myself any longer. I made my bed and now I get to sleep in it. I am in recovery now so hopefully my higher power will give me some relief.
Open Cocaine Addiction & Recovery
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