alyciajamison's Journal

I am going through some old pictures and realize the smile on my face. It really does bring tears to my eyes. I miss that smile and the happiness I felt. I miss being with Derek and the feeling I get from his presence. I miss everything about the life we had and I am slowly coming to the horrifing realization that I may never return to that life. I may never be that happy or that in love...all I can do is pray I will get that chance...the chance to go back...change things and go back to happiness. It is hard because even now...whenever I see him..we hang out...or even just a phone call the chills start to come and i can feel the presence of a smile on my face...true happiness that only he brings out in me. I pray to the lord above that we will work out and that he will come back and I will forever feel his presence and joy he brings into my life.