dip3's Journal

A little more about me. I was married to my wife the first time for about 7 years. We had a child when we were 18 and 19 so we had no idea what we were doing. It took us awhile to get married (5 yrs later). She gave me the choice of getting married or moving out. I chose to marry her!

I had suspected that 7 yrs and two more children later that she may have been having an affair. I was never able to prove it but things didnt add up in my mind. She accused me of being delusional and said I needed help. Our relationship wasnt that great as time went on. Less and less time together, both of us working etc... There was little or no physical or emotional contact towards the end. (Another reason I suspected an affair)Finally I couldnt take anymore and left. She filed for divorce and 90 days later we were no longer married.

Our divorce was smooth. It was fair to both of us. We decided to remain friends for the kids. I was for the most part happy but at the same time lonley and fustrated. Well a couple of months went by and I found out she was pregnant from another guy. A few months after that I was there supporting her (the guy she had been with wanted no part of the baby) and being there for my kids. She eventually gave birth to a beautiful baby girl. I had so many emotions about it I was like a dog chasing its own tail.

After awhile it seemed, even with another mans baby, we were treating eachother more along the lines of when we first got married. She was paying attention to me and making me feel special. Well this all ended up in us getting back together. A lot of intimacy, a lot of talking. One thing lead to another and we got married a second time. Well let just put it this way...burn me once shame on you, burn me twice shame on me. I should have known she was using me. Life really pisses me off sometimes!!