Monte's Journal

I have been in a lot of pain last couple of weeks , don`t know if it is the weather causing my SM to act up or just the SM trying to get the best of me . It has been raining here more than it has in a long time .

I have been trying to keep myself busy out at my Mom and Dads place helping to mow and trim bushes , not able to do a lot but just being there and trying to help a little has been helping my Dad to not think so much about Moms problems that she is having with the Alzheimers . Not that it has gotten any better but it does help for me to be there to distract Dad from thinking about it so much .

I was going to post a topic on the SM board but the way I am feeling I just don`t think it would be a good idea right now . Too much pain and nothing has helped . The med`s are just making me sick and dissy so I have almost stopped taking them. Some of them are just for the pain but then the side affects are so bad I can`t stand them ,like taking the Tramadol is making me have these head surges and that in itself makes me sick to my stomach , and then the muscle relaxer is starting to make my heart burn come back . My spine feels like it is on fire all the time but it seems like none of my doctors know what to do or they just don`t care . I can`t even think straight when I get this way and it seems like it is happening more often lately . I can`t sleep at night and then I get so tired during the day I want to sleep but can`t because of pain . I guess I better get off of here for now or at least wait until I feel better about myself .