Blossarina's Journal

So today's actually been a pretty good day. Compared to yesterday it's been a superb day. For like the first day in months we finally got some rain. It's been so parched here, we're practically in a drought. There's been no green grass whatsoever. Which has been hard on both the horses in our area and the kangaroos. So finally after lots of pleas for rain we got some. I wish it could have lasted longer, but then I guess if it lasted too long we'd be facing being flooded in again. I guess it would be okay now. Just not near Friday when I have to go and get cat food. Otherwise I'd have to borrow somebody's little tin boat and row to town. 

Mum's been nice to me today. Yesterday we had the biggest fight.  It's actually why I typed "online support groups" into google and found this. My family's not at all supportive. They don't understand how it is, and I guess they don't really want to try either. It's just finances have been so bad lately. I'm in dire need of a job. Which you know, I wanted to work anyway, it's just really difficult when my mum gets up on me on a Friday afternoon when everything is shut, the weekend is looming and I really can't do anything to help my jobless status. All I could do is make a list of about 100 or so places in town that are in the retail industry, and now I just have to get my resume together.

It's funny I could write forever. I love to write. If I could do anything I would be an author. Yet when it comes to the structure and professionalism of the resume I get completely flustered. It's like the whole thing turns into complete and utter jibberish. Half the time I have no idea what the heck I'm doing. But I have to get it done by Monday morning.

I really can't live like this anymore. Money is so tight. It's very stressful. I've never really cared for money, but when I don't have any it does put a sort of damper on my life. And what if my cats got sick? What would I do then? I wouldn't even have the money to take them to the vets. Yeah, this just can't go on. I'm fortunate enough that I haven't had any huge things go wrong. But I really can't take the chance that they never will. I need to get over whatever the hell is holding me back and get my butt in gear. I have responsibilities and I need to meet them head on, instead of praying for a miracle that the load won't get any heavier.

Some good news is that I'm moving into a bigger place. I'm currently residing in a sort of carport-turned-into-a-room thing. I think if I remember correctly it's about 3 metres by 10 metres. This new one is going to be around 4 metres by 30 metres.

After I get my job the first thing I'm going to look at doing is getting a cattery built. My newest cat is kind of driving me nuts. All he does is meow. And he's so loud. I've been ignoring him for days now thinking he'll stop, but he just keeps doing it. I know it's cause he wants to go out, but when he used to go out he ended up bashing up the neighbour's cat and they asked me to keep him in. So I keep him in. Blossom and Jacob are inside cats too, but they don't make a fuss at all. Little Monty (well he's not really little at all) has been a lot of trouble. He's actually being destructive. I can't open one of the windows without him totally shredding the screen and escaping.

Ah, Lord give me strength. Hopefully by Christmas I'll have a large cattery for him to go in, and he won't be such a royal pain in my behind. So actually I might look now for how much this whole cattery idea is going to cost. This has been a pretty big post for a night. I'm glad to finally be able to keep a record of how I'm doing though.