sdczernicki's Journal

Hello all,

I am starting a new chapter in my life. I have decided not to follow the cabergoline/bromocriptine regimen. I have been on it for 8 weeks and it has done nothing but screw up my life. It has made me so incredibly nauseous, dizzy, irritable, and horrendously depressed. I have missed school, work, and precious time with my fiance. I won't do this anymore. My prolactinoma was discovered in 2002 and from that point until this fall 2009, it hasnt grown and my mood was good, and i was healthy. I know that I am going off the stable, clear, Dr. Approved path, but FUCK IT. I know my body better than these doctors do. It was coming to the point where I was so depressed and sick that I couldnt get out of bed. I have too much to live for and I won't sit around moping, throwing up, and being sick. I won't do it. since I started the cabergoline 8 weeks ago, I have had to been put on 4 or 5 more medications to deal with side effects. This is simply unacceptable. My doctor's recommendation for surgery is ludicrous. I am a healthy and intelligent woman and I will not further fuck up my brain in order to satisfy some ego-driven system of medicine. I am not their guinea pig. I have too much going for me to be on medication the rest of my life because they destroy other parts of my brain. 

I will however get an MRI once a year to make sure it isnt growing. I'm sorry, but if it hasnt grown in 7 years, I doubt it will anytime soon. I don't care about not ovulating. I am 23 and I dont want to have kids til I'm at least 30 and done with grad school. I don't mind not having a period. Who wants a period?? haha And also, I wasn't lactacting a whole lot, maybe a few times a month a few drops. So fuck it, who cares? I don't. 

I have to trust my gut on this, and I truly felt like cabergoline was a toxic poison. I will NOT put a poison in my body. Its not worth it.

Ok. That's my story. And I'm stickin' to it!!!!!!