ki25012's Journal

 The feeling we once had. It's not about sex, but closeness. I need to feel close to you, but my fear is that you don't want to feel close to me and I don't know how to make you FEEL at all. The desease and sadness that has taken over the love we used to have. The mornings of cuddling and passion have been replaced with the need for cerial and cigarettes. When it used to be enough for you to grab me in your arms....it has become about the alarm that haunts us entirely way too early. But such a life i live...why do our thoughts of life have to suffer. We should live...and have a wonderful fun-loving relationship. We should. Why not. Depression has robbed us of so many things...It's worse than cancer...you know it's there and you know why....But you never want to face it. At least with cancer you know where and how to fight it, or if it's going to last or die. It's up to you............