People are weird
November 4, 2009 9:14am
Today I became accutely aware that everyone I know or have met is obnoxious or eccentric in one way or another. It takes a lot of manoeuvering to …
MartinaJN
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About Me
MartinaJN
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About Me
It's hard for me to open up about myself to others. I have a tendancy to feel misunderstood no matter what I say. I have no profession yet am well educated. I am estranged from my family. I'm a Christian but not mainstream. I'm passionate about SL, intimate relationships, personal growth and I also dabble in the arts. I have severe A.D.H.D. and it causes me to struggle quite a bit. I am hoping to find others who can understand what I've gone through without judging me and also be a supoort to anyone I am in a position to help.
It's hard for me to open up about myself to others. I have a tendancy to feel misunderstood no matter what I say. I have no profession yet am well educated. I am estranged from my family. I'm a Christian but not mainstream. I'm passionate about SL, intimate relationships, personal growth and I also dabble in the arts. I have severe A.D.H.D. and it causes me to struggle quite a bit. I am hoping to find others who can understand what I've gone through without judging me and also be a supoort to anyone
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Support Groups
Close Interstitial Cystitis (IC)
I think I have IC and have so far found a few posts that may give me some things to try
Treatments
- Massage Working / Worked
- I have a large Dr Scholls back beater and use it along my pelvic wall and down the inside of my thighs.. back where kidneys are and also up inside my rib cage. I will be very tired and sluggish the next day so drink a Chinese herbal detox tea. As a result I can now sleep through the night and urinary sensation has returned. I do NOT recommend using this anywhere near the ureter or prostrate forget name of female equivalent part as it causes swelling and symptoms worsen.
Close ADHD / ADD
I was diagnosed as an adult 14 years after I went to the doctor for help because I was convinced that I had a learning disorder. School seemed a LOT harder for me than my class-mates and I couldn't predict when I'd be able to focus on a task to completion. I had to go through screening for 5 months to rule out any "emotional imbalance". I am still learning how to compensate/ organize/ focus, etc... oh shoot.. was supposed to be doing a report for work right now not doing this :/
Treatments
- Ritalin Working / Worked
- incredible irritation and hyper-focus on wrong task
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- hmm... took it for a year and I'm not sure if it works. But I think my physical body had better stability.
- Effexor Working / Worked
- The BEST thing to happen to me EVER! I get better sleep I wake up refreshed I can choose my words thoughts instead of them choosing me I can do things in an orderly manner I have a better awareness of the passing of time and Im less stressed eat more healthily but most importantly I can enjoy just sitting STILL either watching an entire TV program from begin to end or with my cat on my lap and she loves it!
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
it recently came up in counselling that in ADDITION to my abusive upbringing.. I've spent my entire life trying to heal from it which is another loss. I need to heal something because I'm still hiding from the world and have no career direction.. always feeling 3 feet away from homelessness
Treatments
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- I had to recognize that the abuse was circumstantial and separate it from my mother's personality. I also had to understand my part in exacerbating it so that I could change my victim mentality.
- Leave Somewhat Helpful
- A part of me has totally left and is ok with it and another part of me wants to not need to keep such distance in order to protect myself. I'd like to be emotionally stable to the point where she can't press my buttons.
