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mytyme2shyne 
4:18pm, November 5, 2009
It hurts so bad. Right now as I type this I feel like doing a hit. What is with this drug? Why do I allow it to take over my life? I used to be stronger than this. I remember the days when I would laugh and point at those that were doing drugs. I swore I would never touch the stuff. And then one bad thing led to another....now I am the one being laughed at. It hurts so bad. The feeling to do it is so strong inside of me. I am trying to keep focused but I know it is just a phone call away. I will be strong. I will be strong. I will be strong. God please someone help me. I don't want this anymore. I don't want to feel disgusted with myself for doing this anymore.
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My Friend I'm here for You . Your story sounds alot like my own and many other's I don't think any of us ever set out to start taking drugs but some how something in our lives go's wrong and we end up being those people. I was a hard working person and had everthing I ever wanted and all it took was meeting up with one wrong person and that was the end of it all. I never in my life thought I would use crack NEVER and I did and man was that a mistake.
But here I am 2 yrs. later clean and sober and don't want anything to do with not only the drugs but any one or any place that has anything to do with them. You have to walk away from that life for good . you called out to god (God Please someone help me) Please try doing this say (God Plese Help me I can't do this anymore I don't want this in my Life anymore and I don't know how to stop I need Your Help.) This is what I did my Last night I was lost and had no place to turn in my life and needed help. I don't know if this is the way you want to go in your life some people call it a higher power I call Him My Lord it's up to You which way you want to go I think if You find what works for You then go for it. But Never give up on trying you will get there and the more You reach out the better your chance's are. The pain will go away along with wanting it. Good Luck and know I am always around if You need to talk.
Dan
cando2
Cando you have made my day. I am not very open about my life and reaching out on this site has been very hard to do. I need help and I thank you very much for giving me a "hug'. Give me time I will hug you right back! By the way, my previous entry stated that I wanted a hit but I didn't do it and I hope and pray that I don't ever go back to that. This is by far the hardest emotional rollercoaster I have ever been on.
mytyme2shyne