DeepintheNothingness's Journal

even if i cry, it doesn't help that im a freak. forget the "freak of nature" im just a freak. i have never found anyone that can complete me or the deep gaping hole that exists to keep me crawling awake every day. there is noone i have found that would like to open me up to see the distruction that has happend inside of my brick-block soul. there is no volunteer to stand by me and no place for my fears. there is no angle i can look at it where there is no tears. but theese tears never show because i have mastered hiding them. My emotional walls are like sand. if they are broken from the bottom then they are no more but everyone that sees that is afraid they will suffocate within the miles of emotions that hide within. i am broken. no need to hide that. I was a person and that's a fact. but now i am worthless and noone can see that within all that fills me, i am empty.