russ54's Journal

Well... that be a hole in the ground ...rite..?

See  see  so  so.... Oh say can ya see ... them brite colored leaves...

how they fall thru the air .. and da trees goin  bare...

yepp... naked trees... well not yet but soon.. see the yellow and orange color leafs....  distance hill sides start their  fall cascade of color... a mixture of green and reds.. yellow and orange....

all too soon  it will be in full  swing... till the turkey gobbles and old saint nick... comes down the chimmey...

but for now it Oct.... the witchin month... OOooooooooooeeeee!!

All the ghoust and gobblins... twitchy little trolls be droolin on ya front door stepp real soon... 

Trick or Treat.. smell my feet..... oh just shut up an  fill da bag.. grandpa... gee... I'm gettin old here....

Was a special treat when there were  three or four of em out on Holloween  gosh darn  whole years supply of candy...

Ya know that not one them kids... ever had a cavity or went to a dentist for a tooth ache... and three of em in their 30 so far... now thats a blessin for sure...

gosh  it slipps by  ya so fast don't it..

reminds  me of a song I heard just  a few times way back in 1971...

"all I'm tryin to say is to have a nice day.... hope it don't rain on your parade..  and when it all comes down I hope it don't fall on you...."

Funky little tune it were...dont' remember the artist or the title... just those word...."hope it don't rain on your parade... "

Where do  it go from here....?

If our lifes are like the seasons.. born in the spring..mature thru the summer... into the Fall... and await the winter....

i gotta admitt... pain the last few days have had me wondering what is next....I've faced Death a few times... head on in defiance.... but now I wonder just how for off in the distance do it linger....

Why am I afraid.... what is the fear that awaits in the darkness.... it isn't really Death... actually it's Life... I'm afraid of change.... Change is constantly  causeing me great pain.... frustrations.... and uncertainties...

I know in my heart.... that I'm facing the end of my life....even if  I do 20 more years.. it's only the twinkle of the eye....

And I stand before the Truth....once in for all time.... the question I've asked so long will be answered....

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guess it  sounds morbid to ponder you own death...

but I do... it's like a new adventure into an unknown ....

all the teachings we had in our lives..

all the learnings and exspectations..

or dreams... and hopes.... gather  together...

to give us courage to face ..... Death.....

is it the end.... or the begining.....

well I aint no hurry to find out..... Nope... but I'd like to be ready....

just in case....

How da heck do you do that..... be ready....

well as I suffer chronic pain...I'm lookin forward to the relief.... of a long painful existance on this planet....

but ya know I'm gonna be tinkin... about all the wonderful life experiences I've had  here on Earth....

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I wanna explore the Heavens....

but I have to wonder... because the other option..  well

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Look out below......cause when I get there I'm takin over.. ya bettya...

I'm lookin forward to a few more years of livin... watchin my family grow... hoping my blessing continue as they have for the last 50 years....

when  I am released from this old tired worn out body....

i can find Peace...

"and he shall wipe away every tear......"  

and  I shall dwell in his house forever.. amen....

I'm really countin on ya for this one my friend...!

Yepp...

If ya find this one too much sorry.... just pondering life....cause I believe it is a journey... we only just begun....

russ

besides I am feelin a wee bit better...