russ54's Journal

Well guess i be tinkerin in the back yard today..

lady down the street she said she gotta have one them

tables.. and chairs.. wants to have a bench set too..

tink it's  called a Sette...settty... oh well  It's 400 pound tested lol..

I cut out a bench yesterday.. gonna put it together today..

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I got one ting that tearin my heart out...

see I know some folks love animals...

and I love em too... but sometimes it kinda looks like..

well it just tooo much for a person too handle..

so the animals start to suffer and well the owner suffer..

but for some reason they don't seem to understand it's time

to let go.. find some new homes ...Ask for help..

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so i offer help... nope they wont have none of that..

I keep tryin to find a way to help...

now I'm at a point I wanna just call some folks and say..

Looky... this is wats goin on..

But.. ya know there's an udder side that kinda scary...

aint that these folks gonna hate me..nope...but it could cost em

their job.... cause when the city gets wind of this ...

Chit gonna hit the fan... fur reall.. this is way bad..

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I don't like this at tall...nope...

I'm kinda beside myself tryin to figure out  should I or ....

should I give em a little more time....

Oh I don''t even wanna think about this..

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wish I just didn't know sometimes..

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Oh looky a nutter train comin thrru...

dang I must be gettin old.. missed it ....hehehe

Well my son  he seems to be in remission... lol..

meanin he aint doing dilly doo... just hangin round the house

playin his new X-box.. wish I could just cut the elecricity off to his room lol....

mean aint I...

I've been preachin and yammerin on for 15 years...

tryin to set a good example..

tryin to be a good dad...

now it looks like gee what for...

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it aint gonna get any better untill some one with some know how ..

gets this kid into some kinda program to educate him...

Boot camp sounds good to me LOL.. but he'd freak plum out..

least he do when I mention one lol..

I don't know .. maybe I'm just feelin Old...

with the chronic pain.. and all the crapp in the world..

I don't even feel like I fit in No Wheres....

well don't looky like that emotioncon gonna work..

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sorry I got brain overload today...

serious chit... just befuddles my brain...

tryin to find a bright side is like

sittin in the dark without a flashlite...

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Well  One day at a time..

gonna work on them lawn chairs...

let the smell of fresh cut pine  drift thru my mind...

so  best wishes to all... me I gotta go ...

there be a phone call I gotta make..

tuff decisions...  yepp...

guess I aint dead yet...

but it feels like it's killin me...

always  Russ