russ54's Journal

Here I am agin... fumblin around in the dark...

Yesterday... I took off and picked up my precription...

Local  Target store... It's a real bummer walkin these days...

I'm so slow..

No My Butt Aint draggin...? or is it... HHhhmmmm..

Just since I fell... it's difficult to walk..stand even sit in one spot too long.

Dang i was so hopeful about being more active this year...

Jeesh I was intertainin the Idea of a part time Job...

Well the fall I took in Jan.. kinda changed this world I live in...

they found them little wrinklely growth thingys on my kidneys..

Yepp they showed me the pictures too ... way cool  lookin at ya insides..

hey looky  ...?..what is that....?  no chit... well don't tell anybody okay...?

Now these doc's keep tellin me when Ya loose all this big hinny Ya got..

you gonna be able to walk better...

Hey doc.. it was hard walkin when I was 170  pounds...

is anybody listenin....?

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some how I don't tink they is... just got this list of things they gotta do.

so they can meet the regulations that allow em to get payed...yepp...

Wat de hay was I talkin about any old way..

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Oh yeah Taget... hehehe... boy they got some stuff in there..

i bought me a mirror for my three wheely... but I couldn't find no iron on

patches.. yeah guess that's why they invented wally world...

May be I try one them fabric stores.. get some patches that stay ironed on.

they got all these CD's for sale... Music ya know... I love music.. butt..

yepp always that big Butt... i can't hear it anymore..

even witt  head phones it takes me a few minutes to reconise what song

is playin... if I know the song cool.. if I don't.. I can't understand it...

sad part is the music is all screwwy too...it all seems to run together ..

ends up like a Free way crash... LOOK OUT....splatt

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I was tryin to explain it to DJ... he was tryin to tell me about these weeds

he broung home from the garden he works in...Community garden thingy.

they some kind o  herb.. but ya can't smoke em.. hehehehe...

any ole who.. he strugglin to try and get me to pronounce this weed rite..

and he's soundin out the words...boy was he frustrated.... but finally  I got

it.. yepp... Nope I aint even tryin to say that dis moanin.. no way....

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so witt my hearin  it's a real bugger tryin to understand these doc's...

Ya gotta remember word don't sound like words to me.. they noise....

you say good moanin russ.. and well I might hear someting ya don't say in

front of ya mama... really .. it tuff...Like this new doc...she says she concerned about my male harmonie thingy.. wants me to use this patch...

WHY...either she said so you can get it up... or have more getty up... and the things she said about my boners... jeesh lady you don't even know me...

boners.. i don't need no stinkin boners... BONES  Oh.. gee sorry..let me git on the same page you on... hehehehe.....(blushes)  gosh...

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maybe ya better  treat me to dinner before we discuss anyting els....LOL

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so any ole way.. these patches got more side effects than I even wanna know... like things turnin color... swellin and gee what..... sore what....?

dang... I don't believe I'd told that one.. Whoa...

well I wore one patch for a while ... It fell off.. hehehehe... still haven't gotten all the glue off my hide... guess I need to sandblast it.. gee

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So now these meds I take they messin witt me eyes... ya got it... I don't like messin witt me eyes... only thing I got that still works is seeing...

SEE...I see U... oh yeah I can smell too ....real good since I quit smokin....

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Well if ins all the side effects of our meds aint enuff... this old world is..

WAY....I don't feel like I fitt in no more..kinda scary even.... it's  like ifins you get Old.. and disable... and ya aint got no ... you aint gonna get NO...

Folks don't act like they use too... nope ...

Kids in their 20's  they point and laugh at me ridin my three wheely...

the zoom around you in a 25 mph zone.. and flipp ya the one finger salute...

through beer bottle outta their cars in folks yards... or break em on the side walk so little kids can get their feet all cut up...

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I see folks witt all kinds of stuff stickin  outta their skins.. gee whizz... WHY

one the baggers at my grocery store.. he got holes in his ears bout the size of a dime.. gee ....nutter fellow got his tounge split.. kinda like a snake..

gosh ....

nine outta ten people will promise ya things they aint even thought about keepin the promise they makin... gee..

So betwix the hearin.. and bein crazy... I kinda wonder how all this gonna work out....

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I don't know why my lifes been so dang ruff...always fightin to get up one side...fallin down the other..... all I know is I'm so tired of being alone... and so dang scared to get involved.... been along a long time...aint not  spring chickin no more... more like a sprung turkey lol.. limpin even... too old and tooo tuff for the axe....

this chronic pain.. gosh .... it gets REAL...

My World is way funky... Yo-Yo even.. up and downs... lotts of downs...

So yesterday I made a kiddy Anderack chair.. and gave it away to the young lady who ask me ifins I could make on.. just rite for her little boy..

made it outta scraps.. tossed it around the yard a couple of time.. first time I broke a leg lol.. so I replace that.. and tossed it again.. Nope nuttin broke..

must be ready lol..

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Lots of folks lookin at my lawn chairs.. but aint no one got no money lol.. and it's only the 7th lol.. yepp I'm broke too hehehehe...

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The nicest thing about my world is my DS friends...

thanks for puttin up witt me.. Ya'll the best.. Russ