Journal

There's a reason...I'm not online as much...In  some ways..

I've healed.. in others...I grown more aware that the only happiness..

that i can have is that which is here around me...

Friends on DS...online buddies... and even lately watchin my old class mates... on Facebook..

This computer is a great way to connect with other people..

specially if ya hearing impaired..home bound...find it difficult to deal ...

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I'm  confused and dazed about the world.. the suffering and pain...

the INJUSTICES.... i see...make me ASHAME... to be a part of the HUMAN race...

I've always been a supporter of Freedom.. specally  of  peoples  Faith.. and how they worship Our Creator....

But  screamin   GOD is Great  and unloadin a gun into  a crowd of  men and women.... Well that be the last straw for me....

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So to all the  folks out there...I'm tired....I feel lost... because as Humans... we are destroyin ourselves and the Planet we live on....

i truly believe  we should bring our forces home.. and rebuild America...

Let the rest of the World ...  fix their own dam problems... and we should FIX  our OWN....

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I've got that America   LOVE  IT... or get the hell out attitude this MOANIN..... yepp...

I say we fix you problems... If these other countries want our help well

hey.. ya should of treated us with a little respect... Oh yeah..

Those companies that wanna be buildin chit over there... why don't ya just move over there..  Yeah pack up ya bowlin bags and get ....

Go live where ya make ya money... You don't Care about  America...

All these big companies.. re wrote the Monopoly Laws.. Looky where it got

us.......

It's a Sad dang Day for Americans.....We are being exploited by our  own dang  GREED..

Well we guilty.. we put em in Office... those Educated... double talking ....

never say what they mean Officials in Office....

I feel Tired.. because this was the Greatest Country in the World....

Now it's a Mess....

The American Dream..... is a NightMare......

I can't get a loan from a bank cause I'm  on SSI...

but I can get a credit card.... or a charge account at some catalog thingy.. that charges outrageous intrest... and extra high prices....

I aint even gonna say chit about HUMAN RESOURSES...  I aint a minority...

so mostly all I get there is DENIAL...

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This Country.... is being eroded away... by selfish .... greedy power hungry

person...  we voted into Office.. lately all those elected officials care about

is fussin and fightin and denying  each other the needs to get this country I Love so Much... up on it's feet again....

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I'm  TIRED...and afraid.... I'm a disabled person.... and  My country...makes me feel like a burden to Society.... even tho I've been taxed heavly to provide these programs fof Disable person...

I  Feel like a Second Class Citizen....

I'm tired... of  feeling  worthless.... of being alone....judged by others that

have no Idea what disable people have to put up with just to  survive....

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I'm in a lot of  Pain... above and beyond the constant  everyday chronic chit I live with... Those who dwell in the house of  Chronic Pain... Know full well....what I'm talkin about....

I'm glad the rest of ya don't......

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I'm payin the Fiddler... cause I have to do things I can't afford to pay for....

like put Brakes on my Van.....

I got  em on....have a few things to do to finish the job and make sure they work properly so it's safe to operate on the road..

next few days gonna be ruff...

Ruff and sadd...   yeppp...

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I moved to Wisconsin From Killeen..Tx...

I'm really feelin their pain today...

I'm gonna shut up now... later....

Prayers for the wounded... russ

Well here it is another day....

I'm wondering what should I say...

i could get by just sayin Hey...

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I'm waitin for some body...

I'm waitin for some Love...

I'm Feelin...

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I'm lookin out the window...

The leaves fell off the Willow..

i bury my face in my pillow...

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I'm waitin for some body...

I'm waitin for some Love...

I'm Fellin...

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I'm feeling some what better...

The world does not evolve around old men on SSI.....

Strange weather eh... only thing stranger is my Mind..

I am blessed...I should not forget ...

Ya'll have a good day ya hear..

russ

I  fell off my rocker...

it really isn't fair..

and I was just wondering..

as I'm flyin thru the air..

this sudden stop gonna hurt...

I  know what I'm exspectin...

just seem to me for all I'm worth...

I'm still here reflectin..

No matter how fast...

no matter how far....

every time i fall off my rocker...

it's gonna leave a scar...

so hear I is a fallin..

to whine I just don't dare...

but I still be a wonderin

why that  dog chewed up my under wear..

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Dancin in the livin rool..

scootin down the hall...

get outta of the way ya dog..

ya gonna make me fall...

rollin in the kitchen bangin on some pans..

this weathers kickin my old tail....

more than I can stand...

reflectin on the future...

cryin about the past...

dang that old floor is..

comin up reall fast...

so hear I am a fallin..

to whine I just don't dare...

but I'm still a wonderin...

why that dog chewed up my underwear.....!!!

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dang doggie... looky at this...

oh gosh darn ... ya got my pants too...

don't ya get enuff fiber in ya diet....???

Hey are you chewin grass again..

oh  golly dang... ewwweeeeeeeeeee.....

that just aint rite....

Why  ya lookin at me like dat...

rollin them big brown eyes...

waggin ya stubby wittle butt...

Yeah I  love ya doggy.. dang nabit...

Stop that... hehehehehe ... I aint lickable... 

I said quit it doggie...

OUCH...  ya bite me..dang..

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come mere..   hey...  where ya go...

giveme them back doggy...   oh darn...

nutter pair of airconditioned undies...jeesh.......