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rileyann 
5:38pm, November 12, 2009
I last spoke to Wes 3 weeks ago this evening...he was in a great mood and was really heavy on the I love you's. So many things I wish I'd said now...just a few regrets really...not many, I know in my heart he knew he was going but he didn't want to worry me...it was his way, to keep things lighthearted....I know he'd want me to be at peace and accepting of his crossing over...in many ways I am, but it still doesn't keep me from missing him and hurting.
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Rileyann, I KNOW that Wes knew how much he meant to you and how much you loved him. Don't let those doubts/regrets eat at you. From reading your journals I can tell what a special relationship you and he shared. You never stop missing loved ones that die, but the hurt subsides even though we don't want it to. I'm glad your best friend came to see you. You need the love and support of good friends and family. Keeping you in our prayers, God Bless!
goodfight
Thank you goodfight...thank you for your prayers, I can certainly use them... these sad milestones are something else...counting days, weeks..next months...not to mention the holidays coming up...we were looking forward to so many things...mourning the death of these dreams too. I'm trying to take the advice of scripture about not mourning as those who have no hope...I think the Lord has guarded my heart somewhat throughout this...my grief is intense but manageable...comes in regular waves...
rileyann