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MysteriousPoet 
6:09pm, November 13, 2009
I was lingering around the knife again today. This object has been apart of my life for the last three years. As i was sitting on my bed I realized that my life could end at that exact moment. Hiding in my room as i was deciding whether or not i should end my life, HE was downstairs watching television laughing. Every single time i heard this evil man laugh it made me want to strangle him. His laugh haunts me, i can hear him laughing in my sleep. His evil twisted laugh is louder than the crashing waves of an ocean. Death ... is all I am able to think about it, death is my greatest fear and my greatest wish. I am afraid of the unknown world that i will enter after my departure from this world, perhaps that makes me a coward. It is my greatest wish because it would mean i could leave this world.I could leave all the hatred, sadness and loneliness.
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I wish I could take all the pain away, sounds like you are going through so much, im sorry to see and read that. What i can say is, there is so much to live for, you are young, you have so much going for you. You will make it through this you have my friendship and love to get through this.....Im here for you....Shaz....
ShazzerInc
i know how that feels. i'm here if you need to talk. shaz is right, stay strong hun.
psawyer1
Shaz thank you so much for your kind words. It means alot to know that someone cares. Those are very inspiring words, i am trying really hard to stay strong and people like you help me get stronger.
Thank you pswayer i am here for you also.
MysteriousPoet
I love the way you express yourself with such poetic words, it's like reading a book! It's just so beautiful.
I'm sorry you're having such a hard struggle though :(
I've been going through depression and suicidal tendencies and thoughts for 4 and a half years now, so my heart goes out to you.
There is a way to get peace in the midst of all this.. that's the good news.. :) I hope you find it too :)
girlinameadow
contact me i have something to tell you...
alonejoel
hey i can def. understand the stuff your feeling. i too have questioned life after death and weather or not it would be better to jst leave this world but i have been to enough hospitals and doctors and rehabs and jails to kno that life is amazing. theres always something to live for. even if its jst to see how tomarrow turns out. when you feel down, jst do the best to convince yourself that, tomarrow things will be better. I also see you like to write, which is awsome. it def. helps alot. I jst started writing a book about my life and my struggle w. drugs and depression and its so theuraputic. if you ever need to talk im here. im also always on AIM so you can IM me on there sometime too jst ask for my screen name
Westbound23