Journal

Well I feel better today not as sore but I am really congested.  I drove my brothers car to work today.  This made me feel good inside, I turned up his system and listened to some cd's that we always listened to when we were in the car together.  I knew that he was smiling down on me jaming out. 

Wow i woke up today really feeling sore.  I haven't had this feeling in quite a long time.  Luckily with all that I have had going on in my life Lupus has behaved.  Then today it has started to rear it's ugly head.  It hurts to walk, I have lupus brain where all my thoughts are sluggish.  I took a couple of hydrocodons so maybe that will help get rid of the soreness.  I want so bad to feel good, I am tired of being sick.  The two weeks I spent in the hospital were horrible and I really want to avoid ever going back if at all possible.  I have been trying my best to stay healthy and see my DR's like I am supposed to but it can be difficult.  I have already missed 1 month of work this year.  Luckily my employer is great.  They understand and want me to be ok but I am already working on using up next years vacation/sick time.

Well I am getting better, I had a decent weekend.  I didn't do to much but clean the house which hadn't been done in forever.  I though about my brother alot and finished a book called 90 mins in heaven which is a great story about a minister who dies for 90 mins then comes back to life.  True story