juliariera031408's Journal

My body is going through so many feelings and emotions this week.

This is the 2nd true week I've followed through with counting calories. I'm getting off to a super slow start. Tomorrow is weigh in for me and I think I will fail miserably.

I was sick earlier this week, but I fought whatever I had by staying home and sleeping and resting instead of going to the gym. I still ate large amounts of food my body was craving and I think it needed extra protein for whatever it was fighting off.

Today I'm feeling much better, still a little run down though.

Now my lower back is out and I won't be able to go to the gym until Monday after I go to the chiropractor.

I'm definitely not looking for excuses to stay away from my goal of losing weight the healthy way, I think this week was just a horrible week in general for motivation on losing MORE weight.

I really want to go to the gym tonight, but I know with this old injury in my back, and with it starting to go out it will only make it worse. So I say, throw this week in the bag, do my weigh in tomorrow no matter how miserably and have a fresh start next week.

One side note is that I really need to start drinking more water. I've been drinking TONS of tea all day at work everyday and I drink 1 cup of coffee each morning.

P.S. How do I make myself stop cravings carbs as much? Drink tons of ice water everytime I have a craving until I don't have that craving anymore in the present moment?

Also, I think I'm getting into the habit of eating my feelings and I want to get away from that. I think I fear NOT eating. Like there is lack of food and I might starve. How do I trick myself to know it's ok to eat less, b/c food will  ALWAYS be there!!! ???? HELP.

Wish me better luck at trying harder next week to lose more weight b/c this week is a failure!!!!

Love,

Julia