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just cannot seem to get going today...makes me spiral out of control when i cannot accomplish anything...very frustrating...
then before you know it the day is gone, nothing got done, still in your pj's and then the kids are home from school again and whooooosh, there went the day with nothing to show for it.
keep thinking it would be great to exercise and mayabe help the energy level...but then i feel more wiped out than i did before the thought of exercising or actually exercising for real...
what a drag......
i hate this up and down stuff
i never wake up refreshed... i keep thinking "tomorrow" will be the day...and then that day of refreshment never comes.......ick...
what a roller coaster........blah blah blah
then before you know it the day is gone, nothing got done, still in your pj's and then the kids are home from school again and whooooosh, there went the day with nothing to show for it.
keep thinking it would be great to exercise and mayabe help the energy level...but then i feel more wiped out than i did before the thought of exercising or actually exercising for real...
what a drag......
i hate this up and down stuff
i never wake up refreshed... i keep thinking "tomorrow" will be the day...and then that day of refreshment never comes.......ick...
what a roller coaster........blah blah blah
well, this day went really well it seems...first day of spring break so we did not have to hustle and bustle around so much which helps tremendously...
the bad thing though is although i dont want to scurry around i also dont want to feel like a slug on society...it is a vicious cylce trying to find a balance...
one wants to pursue dreams and goals but then the fog of fatigue envelopes you and you spiral out of control...then you regain some energy and try to make up for "lost time" and then chaotically put yourself back on the brink of the insaness of the crummy old fatigue again...
yep...BALANCE...what an evasive thing to try to grasp on to... just when i think i have things figured out...that ugly monster of "losing control" peeks its dirty head into my life again...
would love to get a job and help out at my children's school...they need teachers desperately and i used to teach and am even certified but i get so nervous about making such a huge commitment... i am a bit OCD about things and the thought of not doing something right/perfect makes me not want to attempt it...
just taking all my meds in the morning takes 15 good minutes...not to mention getting the kids ready (5 and 7), make myself presentable, and know whats for dinner at night and then make sure lesson plans are on target...
yikes, there i go again talking myself out of a job!!
way to go!! woo hoooooo...
that's all i know... well, like i told a friend today...i don't know where my train is going but at least i know that my conductor is God... He has a plan for my life!!!
the bad thing though is although i dont want to scurry around i also dont want to feel like a slug on society...it is a vicious cylce trying to find a balance...
one wants to pursue dreams and goals but then the fog of fatigue envelopes you and you spiral out of control...then you regain some energy and try to make up for "lost time" and then chaotically put yourself back on the brink of the insaness of the crummy old fatigue again...
yep...BALANCE...what an evasive thing to try to grasp on to... just when i think i have things figured out...that ugly monster of "losing control" peeks its dirty head into my life again...
would love to get a job and help out at my children's school...they need teachers desperately and i used to teach and am even certified but i get so nervous about making such a huge commitment... i am a bit OCD about things and the thought of not doing something right/perfect makes me not want to attempt it...
just taking all my meds in the morning takes 15 good minutes...not to mention getting the kids ready (5 and 7), make myself presentable, and know whats for dinner at night and then make sure lesson plans are on target...
yikes, there i go again talking myself out of a job!!
way to go!! woo hoooooo...
that's all i know... well, like i told a friend today...i don't know where my train is going but at least i know that my conductor is God... He has a plan for my life!!!
Well, this is my first time to be part of a chat type site if that is what you call it.
I was just goofing off on the internet to research "coping skills" for people that have autoimmune diseases and CFS...and voila...here I am.
I will say it is interesting to find other people that are in a similar boat...it is great to bounce ideas of others...helps with the coping strategies...
That is it for now...
I was just goofing off on the internet to research "coping skills" for people that have autoimmune diseases and CFS...and voila...here I am.
I will say it is interesting to find other people that are in a similar boat...it is great to bounce ideas of others...helps with the coping strategies...
That is it for now...
