oopsiecake's Journal

23 yr old girlie girl recently diagnosed with graves disease, hyperthyroidism and tachycardia. I am having more syptoms which arent text book symptoms for what I have and I am being sent in circles having to shell out money for doctors which in turn dont give me any info! Well whatever about that, I am a model, special effects makeup artist, actually I would say I am an everything artist! I do mosaic tables to paintings, I make anything from clothes to sculptures! I can make anything I want! During the day I am boring like everyone else and work a 9 to 5 corporate job at BMW. That isn't what I want to do for the rest of my life, but I don't know if my disease will hold me back from standing up and doing latex face prosthetics for hours. Art is my love no matter what aspect of art it is. I really feel like I'm loosing everything I love, and Im scared. I have no family in the state I live in, they are all back in NY and theres no way I'd move back there. It's not like I have the perfect mum to come home to, I'd really be more stressed than if I stayed here. The point is though I'm lonely. I need support and people that understand what Im going through.