kimmeroo's Journal

Today I'm just worried about my mood.

I tidied up my room, did things that I had been meaning to, and have been waking up earlier than usual. I don't know if that will lead to anything, especially since my medications have been adjusted so recently, and it's been so long since I've had a real episode, but I'm worried all the same. I wish I could remember the date of the horrible Rhode Island trip when I had my last episode. Between R and I, we think it is three weeks ago.

I know that day to day I have no mood swings at all of note. I occasionally feel jumpy or agitated, but it is nothing of real note, and I have told my dr, and he gave me the risperdal for all of that, and it does work and very well I might add. I only think that I should pay attention.

It's not like before when I went crazy dusting, or didn't sleep at all, in fact what wakes me most of the time is having to pee because of my lithium dose and then not being able to fall asleep because it's already 6 or 7am. 

The pychosis about bugs and songs for the most parts are gone as well. I just think I'm worried, but I really have to be vigilant.

Am I stable at the end of the day? Yes, I am, comparably, very much so. But I have to keep track of everything. Stability is something that its very tenuous and can go away so easily, I think.  And of course I'm a chronic worrier.