Honest Decisions Goal - Update 2
October 27, 2009 8:15pm
After working the twelve steps 3years, 7 months ago, I thought I had made the required amends to those folks in my past whom I had harmed. Now, …
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The Better Me Goal Update 1
October 27, 2009 7:49pm
I've actually had this goal for months, but am very glad to find somewhere to keep track of it, add my accomplishments and even mention any …
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My First Goal Update - Stay Strong
October 27, 2009 6:47pm
Today, I arranged for the Apartment manager and leasing agent to get the paperwork together for me to sign my 30 day notice and to sign the …
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Close Alcoholism
I have 3y, 7m sobriety and am always willing to help others when I can. More than willing to learn from others at every opportunity.
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Working / Worked
- The steps are amazing not only in regards to alcoholism and addiction, but in all aspects of life.
- AA Meetings Not Working
- I STRONGLY RECOMMEND ATTENDING AA MEETINGS. It is extremely unusual, maybe even miraculous to find success in sobriety without the meetings. I did attend long enough to complete the 12 steps the first time through. Sobriety is not something that can be accomplished alone.
- Trazodone Working / Worked
- Didn't realize thisi was a treatment for alcohol, I take a mild dose for sleep.
- Willpower Working / Worked
- Being determined to succeed is a huge part of succeeding!
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionIt seems I've had severe depression for years, even taking medication, but without actually owning it until just this year. I'm feeling better now, but fear I will never be completely well. I thought I may relate with others who have been diagnosed with the same disease.
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- I'm continuing this process.
- Cymbalta Not Working
- Had to quit taking it
- Effexor Not Working
- Made my extremeties tingle severely.
- Elavil Not Working
- This made me like a zombie - sleepy and dopie.
- Electroconvulsive therapy Working / Worked
- FINALLY - something that worked. This was like a miracle after 20 years of meds. Memory problems went away, but were scary and frustrating while present.
- Lexapro Not Working
- Raised my normally low blood pressure to unrealistic levels.
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- I have to work to remember to do this. When I do, it is helpful for part of the day.
- Paxil Not Working
- Caused me to have manic phases.
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- This is also something that if I constantly remind myself of, it works. If I'm really low, it does not turn it around and help me.
- Prozac Not Working
- Caused me to act quite a bit 'out of character'. Shopping and overspending issues etc.
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- I've seen quite a few. I have a habit of not appreciating when they start trying to tell me how to make other people behave a certain way. lol
- Seroquel Not Working
- Doctor took me off of it - can't remember why
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- I don't actually have a lot of support from friends and family.
- Trazodone Working / Worked
- Take it for sleep
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- This made my anxious.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- Helpful
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- Caused some negative personality changes.
Open Rape
I was raped about 5 years ago. Then I turned to alcohol and drugs. I lost my family, friends, home and job. I'm now sober, I've received ECT for depression. I continue to experience fear, I look over my shoulder and have some anger issues which revolve around the rapist. I am aware that I will be well when I can forgive, but cannot imagine doing so yet.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Psychotherapy has only been somewhat helpful to me as I tend to run from therapists. The only excuse I need is when they start telling me how to get people to act the way I need them to act so I'll be happier about myself.
- Rape Counseling Somewhat Helpful
- I had rape counseling for a brief period right after the rape. Then I was off to the constant alcohol and drug use. After that, I had plenty of serious pending problems to work out on top of the rape that needed immediate attention.
- Talking Not Working
- When I talk about it, it is not to anyone who has actually had the experience. No one understands. My main support person wants to know why I keep my blinds closed and asks me everytime he comes here. I finally had to ask him if he knew anyone else who had been raped. I felt very insulted, hurt and somehow guilty about having to give the explanation. I also felt like I was being looked down upon for not having my blinds open.
Open Chronic Pain
I've had chronic pain for over 20 years. I've been sober and will not take any narcotics for 3 years 7 months. The pain was made worse by a near fatal car accident a year ago.
Treatments
- Flexeril Not Working
- Do not take - due to sobriety.
- Heat Working / Worked
- Helps to some extent.
- Hydrocodone Not Working
- Do not take- due to sobriety.
- Lyrica Not Working
- Did not work.
- Marijuana Not Working
- Not using due to sobriety.
- Meditation Not Working
- Did not work.
- Mobic Not Working
- Did not work.
- Morphine Not Working
- This was somewhat helpful when I used it. It just made the rest of my life unliveable.
- Naproxen Not Working
- Did not work.
- Nerve Blocks Working / Worked
- These help for about 2 weeks, but they are supposed to last longer.
- Neurontin Not Working
- Did not work.
- Oxycodone Not Working
- Do not take due to sobriety.
- Physical Therapy Not Working
- Did not work.
- TENS Somewhat Helpful
- I still use this at times.
- Topamax Working / Worked
- Works with the additional migraines that I have.
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