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bgig1965 
5:08pm, November 12, 2009
I am losing it, I really don't know what to do. When ever things seem to get better or looks like there is a chance, it goes to hell again, but worse. I can't take it anymore, I don't want to be here. I just want out. I don't know what to do. I am at the end of my rope. If there is a god why is he doing this to me?
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My friend, what would you say if I suggested that much of your madness is of your own making?
Allow me to explain my reasoning.......You came here looking for a solution to your gambling problem, now you've joined seven other communities as well.......everything from healthy relationships to depression to financial challenges etc. Yes, I realize that all these topics, for you, are connected....... but do you realize that you've expanded your problem from one topic to eight topics.......and it's impossible for you to deal with all of this stuff at the same time, it's too much for anyone to handle by themself. You're only human, you cannot fix everything all at once.
I've been taught that successful recovery depends on me be able to learn to operate on a "one problem- one solution" basis. I deal with one issue at a time, then put it behind me and move along to the next issue........I NEVER try to do more than I realistically can, it serves no useful purpose.
What is the biggest, most pressing issue facing you today? Can you do anything about it at this moment? If yes, do it. If no, put it aside until later and move on to the next issue.
Get your life under control......eat properly, exercise, allow time for proper rest and sleep, maintain proper grooming, keep your home clean and orderly, follow your doctors advice........ these simple routines maintain a sense of order and help remove the chaos.......and these simple things are something that you CAN do. It will help.
H.A.L.T........Hungry, Angry, Lonely, Tired........these are very dangerous places.....you CANNOT afford to go there, not ever.
My friend, you say that your girlfriend won't give you any money. You're still gambling. I wouldn't give you any money either. Maybe she's wiser than you're giving her credit for? Maybe once you stop gambling and stay stopped for a while, and get yourself involved in a credible recovery program, maybe this circumstance will change for you.......time will tell.......IF you stop gambling.
In recovery you'll hear certain slogans used over and over again.....
Easy Does It
One Day at a Time
........you hear them over and over again for a reason......they work.
Each day, we do our best, we do not gamble........and somehow, it seems, that works out to be enough. Good thing too, cause we really can't do much more, eh?
eastwester