Journal Entry for October 26, 2009
October 26, 2009 8:44am
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luckyniji13
3:32pm, October 25, 2009
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About Me
luckyniji13
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About Me
I am 2 years old, I go to school part time, work full time 12 hour shifts, third shift for the world's most leading micro-conductor manufacturer. I have a boyfriend whom I we had a daughter together who is nearly three years old. He likes mechanics, I like computers. She likes everything. I have had anger issues my whole life but I am acting out in front of my daughter teaching her bad lessons, I need help and support to figure out how to change myself.
I am 2 years old, I go to school part time, work full time 12 hour shifts, third shift for the world's most leading micro-conductor manufacturer. I have a boyfriend whom I we had a daughter together who is nearly three years old. He likes mechanics, I like computers. She likes everything. I have had anger issues my whole life but I am acting out in front of my daughter teaching her bad lessons, I need help and support to figure out how to change myself.
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Interests
Computers, website design and development, internet programming, used to be surfing before I moved, used to be friends before I moved, used to be family family I moved too, biking/swimming/running in the summer, playing with my daughter and teaching her, video games, bored games, learning something new, studying, playing piano, taking long hot baths
Computers, website design and development, internet programming, used to be surfing before I moved, used
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My last mistake
October 25, 2009 3:39pm
The other day my boyfriend was at work and my daughter and I were in the kitchen working on a homemade soup while she made cupcakes. I was starting …
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i know its hard... i did something similar the other day xxx
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Close Anger Management
I live in a state in which I moved to [it is not correctly disposed on this website which one] four years ago with my boyfriend. It is a rural area where I have no friends or family and was used to a city / suburban life. I found it hard to adjust and it took 2.5 years. Our daughter was born here against my families will and I fear I will never live in a place I thoroughly enjoy again. It is his world, not mine. We have our careers, him more so than me as he is a manager and I am still learning the ropes at my job. He is settled in to where he came from and loves every splitting second of it. I think it is alright for the moment but eventually I will want the 'muck' out of here. He is dependent on beer and I have been trying to quit. I don't drink to the point of getting drunk every night, but we binge on weekends, and while I am working he is still drinking each night anywhere from 2 -5 or 6 beers a night. I am fed up wit this lifestyle and can't take it anymore. It makes him lazy, he never does housework and leaves everything for me unless I nag him enough to do it. He leaves his bottles everywhere and on the porch for everyone to see. One time our priest came over to say hi and saw six beer bottle strewn across the porch, it was terrible. Even our WIC delivery man sees them. I ask him to pick them up he doesn't. I ask him to quit, he doesn't. I try to, been doing great, but he is having a bad influence on me because when I am home and he is drinking I want to partake as well. Sometimes I am strong, sometimes I week. When I wake up after drinking he is at work and I am at home with our three year old, I am always tired and cranky. It is not good for her, it is best to not drink when I am with her the next morning but I have been feeling weaker the more he falls into this rut. We have had this problem for four years together. I want it out of here.
Treatments
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- My current selfdiagnosed treatment involves pushing bad thought out and away and thinking of only positive and good things. My thoughts influence my problem the greatest.
