5boys's Journal

I am so happy today. Hayden did a whole Social Studies lesson on his own, and more than that he got 2 out of 3 questions right on his assesment which means he was really trying!! 2 nights ago we gave him 3 pills of Melatonin and it worked but he woke up groggy. Last night I gave him 2 pills and he was asleep within 10 minutes of laying down and he woke up wide awake! Good to know. I am going to try just 1 pill tonight and see if it helps enough. I feel like I did it backwards, but I was going off what the Dr. told me. I am so proud of Haydem today. Yesterday was difficult and I lost my cool more than once. He sat here for 2 hours crying and pulling on his hair frustrated that I wouldn't sit there and do the work with him. We had done several of the same problems together, and I was wanting him to do one on his own. It was Math multiple step problem solving. He knew how to do it, but was terrified of me leaving his side! It was seriously like he was 3 years old being left with a babysitter. I was so upset and just gave up on most of his schooling for the day. Today however, I talked to him about being a glass half full kind of guy and we made some goals for him to achieve. He wants to be allowed to ride his bike around the neighborhood, have a cell phone, and play games online. I told him the steps it would take to have those things happen, and showed him how possible it would be. Basically saying, "How can you ride around on your bike by yourself when you can't sit in the family room by yourself?" I talked to him about his age and maturity and level of responsibility. He was very embarrassed to admit that he didn't feel like he was capable to do any of this on his own and is scared that I'm going to leave him. It helped so much to get it all out in the open.I knew that he was feeling that way, but for him to say it out loud made him realize how silly it was and how he wanted to change that. He has had a great attitude and has been trying a lot harder today to do his stuff on his own. He has had time for breaks and I have had time for the babies. It still seems like every lesson is going in slow motion. It takes forever to complete them and I don't know if that's my fault or if they are just ridiculously long. Trial and error..Trial and error..Just call me Thomas Edison!