ladymnlite's Journal

I started taking my new meds on Monday night and Tuesday morning.  It's really too soon to tell how well they are working since it takes a week or two for medicines to fully take effect.  Still, I'm noticing little differences.  Like the other day when I burnt my toast... a "normal" response for me would be the urge to SI but instead I was able to brush it off and get over it.  I'm now getting exactly 8 hours of uninterrupted sleep due to my new Trazodone.  I was prescribed 1-2 pills at bedtime and so far I've only needed 1 each night.  Now, as far as side effects go... I've had an upset stomach for the past few days and I'm not sure if it's the wellbutrin, the flu shot I had on Tuesday, or just my normal "morning sickness" that I've had pretty much since I was 12 years old.  I've never been pregnant, but I do understand how it is to be sick every morning when I wake up.  So as I go forward I want to monitor the feeling in my stomach to see if it is worse, better, or normal to see what might be happening with the meds.  I have been making it a point to eat with the meds which should counter any stomach upset that I am having.  We'll see how that goes.  At least taking the meds regularly has got me on a normal and healthy eating schedule.  There are times when I forget to eat some days... with regular med times and meds that need food that ensures that I am eating better.

Also, a lot of the tension at work has lifted since we finally moved to the new building.  The residents have their TVs and radios.. and other belongings back so they are happier and less likely to take out their frustration on us.  Also, the supervisors have been doing the scheduling and so everything is distributed more fairly.  Gone are the days when I'd look up from my work to find myself alone in the building with 60 residents who all seem to need me at that very moment.  I'm just not digging the hour long commute to get there and so I'm thinking about fighting my fear of taking the freeway to see if I can cut that time in half... I am so afraid of driving on the freeway though.  And that is an irrational fear for me since I've been taking it to get home at night.  It should be more scary to drive on that road at night when it's raining and hard to see... but no, my mind gets wrapped around the fear of other drivers hitting me during the daylight hours because there are more cars on that road and they don't know how to merge properly.  I hate merging too :(  I still don't know if I want to try the freeway today or not.  Once I do it I'm sure I'd be less frightened by it.  It's just a matter of facing my fear and anxiety.

So, it seems that some of my stressors in my life have faded at the same time that I started taking the meds.  It's going to take a little more time to be certain but I think I'm definately on a better path than the one I was on 2-3 weeks ago.