ladymnlite's Journal

My workplace finally moved this week and we've all been very busy getting our residents settled and learning how to work in the new building.  There have been a lot of changes there and it is a lot to get used to.  I don't have a lot of time or energy right now to go into much detail but I want to get it all down before I forget...

Yesterday we had 2 call-offs on my shift which left me in the akward position of being in charge when I don't like being in charge...  It was frustrating but I made it through with encouragement from unlikely sources (aka people who I hardly ever work with who just happened to be there.)  I survived :)  And to think... I had wanted to call off too but at least I bothered to go in and I had a fairly good day.

Today, my husband had a little fight with his father and that nearly set me off because I wanted to intervene and make peace but both were too upset for me to do any good.  I managed to slip through that experience and I'm doing ok now though I'm terribly tired.

Tomorrow I will see the psychairatrist who will be giving me meds.  I'm hoping that I get prescribed something I can afford because if I can't afford the meds then I will be less likely to take them or stay on them... I'll have to make that clear to  him/her before anything is prescribed.  The meds can't help me if I can't afford to buy them and take them consistantly.

As for my goals, I'm having a horrible time trying to find time to relax and to exercise.  My husband and I took the dog for a walk together today and that was very nice.  I've also been taking the stairs at work as a show of good faith that I want to exercise... even if setting time aside is an issue.  As for the relaxing part... it's tricky.  I either find myself unable to relax at all because I worry about the housework and get up every few minutes to do it... or on the flip side, I sit down and force myself to try relaxing and worry about the housework while not getting it done and then I get mad at myself because the house is dirty.  I need to find a balance and for whatever reason it seems to be just out of my reach.  Tomorrow is a new day though, and this week is a new week... it's never too late to try again and so I will.