Another busy week - adjusting
November 12, 2009 9:53am
It has been a while since I've been here. A week or close to it. Things have been busy as they always seem to be for me. …
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ladymnlite
10:53am, November 6, 2009
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About Me
ladymnlite
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About Me
I am here to help myself live a better life. I have depression and in the past have harmed myself. I never want to go back to my bad habits and I'm trying to find a way to cope with the stress in my life. Read my journal if you would like more details about what I have survived and what I am currently dealing with.
I am here to help myself live a better life. I have depression and in the past have harmed myself. I never want to go back to my bad habits and I'm trying to find a way to cope with the stress in my life. Read my journal if you would like more details about what I have survived and what I am currently dealing with.
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ladymnlite turned 28 12:00am
November 12
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ladymnlite wrote a journal entry updating their Make time to relax daily. goal 9:53am
It has been a while since I've been here. A week or close to it. Things have been busy as they always…
November 6
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ladymnlite commented on their journal entry Not my best week but getting better (I think) 10:51pm
Sometimes we just need a day to get ourselves together, I guess...I hope the trazodone works well for…
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ladymnlite wrote a journal entry updating their Be a happy person goal 11:07am
I started taking my new meds on Monday night and Tuesday morning. It's really too soon to tell how…
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ladymnlite updated their status 10:53am
Feeling a little better today.…
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Meds seem to be making a little difference.
November 6, 2009 11:07am
I started taking my new meds on Monday night and Tuesday morning. It's really too soon to tell how well they are working since it takes a …
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Not my best week but getting better (I think)
November 4, 2009 11:14am
I have to say, I haven't done very well with either of my new goals. When I rest, I don't get the housework done and I feel really …
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Summary of today
November 2, 2009 7:25pm
I went to my appointment today and was prescribed trazadone and wellbutrin. We will see how this works out. I think I remember taking …
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Long week... tired now
November 1, 2009 9:57pm
My workplace finally moved this week and we've all been very busy getting our residents settled and learning how to work in the new …
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I’m With You
Thank you. How are you doing?
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Ray of Sunshine
I just wanted to tell you that the more I read your journal the more I see myself. I can relate to nearly everything you say, and it brings me comfort to know I am not alone. I am trying so hard to stay afloat at work, and everyday it feels like it gets harder and harder. I feel every trauma I see and hear, and I am enraged at the injustices of life. How do I achieve a state of mental wellness when I am surrounded by pain? I have to focus more on the good and the positive, but that is easier said than done. YOu sound like you work very hard, and just because you are not valued doesn't make your efforts any less significant. Now, if only i could make myself believe that about me. Have a good night...
Prayer
Thanks I am getting there slowly but I will make it (did not cut last night after every one went to bed) and realy hope not to today 4 times in 4 days it must stop only have 4 more days to make this appontment and I got to do it. I stayed with my inlaws yesterday (told my fatherinlaw what was going on) motherinlaw new a few days ago it was not as bad as I thougt thay boath remembered from years back and even though we usualy don't get along all the time that are boath very suportive I was suprised the girls and I are staying with ceral my bestfriend while chris works this week so I am sure with the suporrt I have I gotta make it thanks
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Rainbow
I hope your day is going well! I checked out your profile and it seems we have alot in common. Thanks for adding me.
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Gold Star
Good luck!
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Support Groups
Close Self-Injury
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- I've seen therapists and at first I used to lie to them. When I've met the most recent therapists I always warn them in the first session that I will seem like I am ok when I am not and that I may lie at times. I know lying doesn't help me but I am so ashamed of how I feel sometimes that I just can't help it.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- The only person I can talk to is my husband and it sometimes helps. However, it frustrates him that he can't be more helpful to me and I feel bad that he always has to help me and make me feel better. Everyone else in my life either can't know about my past or if they do, they are too far out of reach to talk with when I'm in crisis mode.
- Tattoos Somewhat Helpful
- My last tattoo was messed up by the artist and he refused to fix it. The tattoo still appears to be bruised now even though it has been 2 years since it was done. I don't have money to get it fixed and it depresses me that it looks so messed up.
Close Children Of Divorced Parents
My parents divorced when I was 7. I am an adult now and have survived growing up as a child of divorced parents.
Open Insomnia
I've had bouts of insomnia since I was 17 years old and it feeds into my depression when I do not get enough rest.
Treatments
- Lavender Somewhat Helpful
- Meditation Somewhat Helpful
- Reading Not Working
- Reading tends to keep me up later if the book is interesting.
- Trazodone Working / Worked
- I have taken trazodone in the past but since then my doctor has taken me off of it.
Open Depression
I deal with my own depression on a daily basis.
Treatments
- Effexor Not Working
- Effexor gave me very vivid and terrifying nightmares that seemed very real when I was having them and left me confused and frightened when I woke up.
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- Doesn't work very well because the happy thoughts tend to be followed by sad ones that counter them.
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- Visiting my family used to help set me straight but I have not seen them in a very long time because they live far away.
- Trazodone Working / Worked
- Trazodone helped me sleep and improved my mood while it was prescribed for me in the past. It was very affordable as well.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- Journaling would help more if I stuck to doing it every day but I often get too busy or I forget.
- Zoloft Not Working
- Zoloft had no effect on my depression.
Open Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD)
One of my doctors diagnosed me with mild OCD in the past.
Treatments
- Zoloft Not Working
- Zoloft had no effect on my symptoms.
Open High Cholesterol
I have a history of high cholesterol and my family has a history as well.
Treatments
- Zocor Working / Worked
- Zocor worked very well in the past.
- Dietary Modification Working / Worked
- Since I have been off of medication I have been able to control my cholesterol by following a very carefully planned out diet. I still have my cholesterol tested routinely to ensure that diet alone is enough to control my high cholesterol.
Open Coronary Heart Disease
My family has a history of heart disease.
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