Journal Entry for October 20, 2009
October 20, 2009 3:30pm
I was a cutter 15 years ago, and now it has returned in thE past 4to6 months badly, I realize I need help, due to a bad chilhood and being molested …
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Smka16
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About Me
I was a cutter 15 years ago, and now it has returned in the past 6 months badly, I realize I need help, due to a bad chilhood and being molested by my grandfather for almost 5 years (who is now dieing of canser) I started cutting from middle school to years after high school. I saw a phicoligist during high school, and maybe a few years after I got married. My husband chris and I have been married scince march of 1998, we have 2 butiful girl one 7 in the first grade, the other almost 5 who will be starting kindagarden next year, but anyhow the cutting started back about 4-6 months ago. my husband and best friend have stood by my side all along. I have went as far as trying some drugs to cover the depression, so about 2 weeks ago I started realizing I needed to get out side help, but that is something very hard for me to do. I can not bring myself to opening up to a stranger. Just started seing a psycolagist and started 2 new meds Remeron & Vistaril and am about to start one on one counseling next week.
I was a cutter 15 years ago, and now it has returned in the past 6 months badly, I realize I need help, due to a bad chilhood and being molested by my grandfather for almost 5 years (who is now dieing of canser) I started cutting from middle school to years after high school. I saw a phicoligist during high school, and maybe a few years after I got married. My husband chris and I have been married scince march of 1998, we have 2 butiful girl one 7 in the first grade, the other almost 5 who will
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Family outtings spending time with my friends and taking care of all my pets
Family outtings spending time with my friends and taking care of all my pets
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I have not been able to handle my girls all week. Not only have I cut again...…
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I have felt the same way all week (only I have already cut) I am a stay at home mon of 2 a 4 and 7 year…
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I have not been able to handle my girls all week. It is seems everything is...…
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Little Love
sending some love your way. You are not a bad mom. I feel that way too when i get real down and beat myself up. It's hard fighting those feelings. Take care of you and do some deep breathing to let go of the toxins built up from toxic thinking.
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Thank you :) It is very much appreciated :D
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our most precious gift is deep within us and that is unconditional love.
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I’m With You
you will get thru this. just believe!
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thats really cool that people around you took it well
i'n not sure people around me will be so accepting
actually they won't
and i cant face been "checked up on"
so much to weigh up, thansk for taking the time to read and respond to my post, nice to know people are listening xx
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