MissMayhem's Journal

As some of you may know i`m in a relationship with a really nice good guy but its a long distance reationship and he`d been pressuring me for a while I finally gave in and now he seems to be ignoring me i haven`t heard from him in a month and all my friends are worried that i might start cutting because of the stress and i admit that i have but only twice and i`m starting to feel like he`s just like every other guy who`s liked me used me (or in every other case but this one treid to use me) and i`m just feeling really stupid and bad like i`m a time bomb and all some one needs to do is light a match.......i`mscared because i don`t know wjat i`m going to do if some other problem happenes. Like my father being his usual jerk self says that he has no idea where my older sister is and he doesn`t care, my mother being her usual salf saying i`m weak and pathetic for cutting and that if i do it again she`ll drive me to the asylum or put me under 72 hour watch, my younger sister who on a regular basis says that if i`m so "emo" and deppressed i should just kill myself. I just don`t know what to do anymore my own family doesn`t care if i kill my self it just makes me cry....but Just remeber if anyone needs someone to talk to or some one to help them i`m here for you.

XoXo MIssMayhem