What the hell has happened to me?
October 17, 2009 9:44pm
TODAY I AM VERY SAD... I HAD …
Progress
0 %
sadlonelylost42
-
About Me
sadlonelylost42
-
About Me
I AM THE OLDEST OF FOUR CHILDREN, BROUGHT UP IN A HOME WHERE OUR FATHER WAS AN ALCOHOLIC. I DO NOT HAVE A JOB, DUE TO A DISABILITY. MY PASSIONS USED TO BE WAITRESSING, JOURNALLING, READING, AND HAVING FUN WITH FRIENDS... THESE ARE ALL BUT GONE. I AM A RECOVERING ADDICT AND HAVE TO LIVE WITH MY DECISION TO GIVE UP MY CHILD YEARS AGO...MY CROSS TO BEAR. MY PARENTS ARE STILL ALIVE, BUT DAD NO LONGER DRINKS...PERSONALLY, I THINK HE IS THE MOST HEALTHIEST OF ALL OF US AT 72.
I AM THE OLDEST OF FOUR CHILDREN, BROUGHT UP IN A HOME WHERE OUR FATHER WAS AN ALCOHOLIC. I DO NOT HAVE A JOB, DUE TO A DISABILITY. MY PASSIONS USED TO BE WAITRESSING, JOURNALLING, READING, AND HAVING FUN WITH FRIENDS... THESE ARE ALL BUT GONE. I AM A RECOVERING ADDICT AND HAVE TO LIVE WITH MY DECISION TO GIVE UP MY CHILD YEARS AGO...MY CROSS TO BEAR. MY PARENTS ARE STILL ALIVE, BUT DAD NO LONGER DRINKS...PERSONALLY, I THINK HE IS THE MOST HEALTHIEST OF ALL OF US AT 72.
-
-
Recent Activity
- Sorry, there is no activity in the My Activity feed.
-
Journal
-
Hugbook
-
Photos
sadlonelylost42 hasn’t uploaded any photos yet
-
Advertisement -
Support Groups
Close Codependency
I HAVE A YOUNGER SISTER, 14 MONTHS APART, AND TWIN BROTHERS, EIGHT YEARS YOUNGER THAN ME. AT THIS TIME, I DO NOT HAVE A HEALTHY ADULT RELATIONSHIP WITH THE YOUNGEST TWIN. HE IS THE ONE DAD PICKED ON THE MOST WHILE HE WAS A CHILD, AND CARRIES WAY TO MUCH ANGER. HE HAS HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE AT 34, AND DRINKS AND SNORTS COCAINE... A TICKING TIME BOMB IF YOU WILL! I WISH TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM WITHOUT ALL THAT STUFF, OR WITHOUT HIS "WIFE" AROUND. HE IS STUBBORN AND THINKS HE IS ALWAYS RIGHT
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Working / Worked
- I WENT TO TREATMENT FOR THREE MONTHS FIRST, AND THEN RETURNED HOME AND FAITHFULLY ATTENDED A.A. MEETINGS FROM MON. TO FRI. I HAVE SINCE RELAPSED SEVERAL TIMES, DUE TO THE PEOPLE I WAS HANGING AROUND...IE: BOYFRIEND, SISTER, BROTHER.
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- HELPS TO PUT ME IN A MORE CHEERFUL MOOD, THAT IS WHEN THE BOYFRIEND/ROOM-MATE, ALLOWS ME TO TURN IT ON AND UP. BUT YES IT DOES HELP ME.
- Reading Working / Worked
- SOME BOOKS I READ TO ESCAPE...IE: DANILLE STEELE. I ALSO READ SELF-HELP BOOKS, AND THE BIBLE. IT JUST DEPENDS ON WHERE I AM IN MY LIFE AND RIGHT NOW I'M SUFFERING FROM MY DEPRESSION AND I ALSO HAVE FIBROMYALGIA.
- Reiki Somewhat Helpful
- DID IT WHILE IN TREATMENT, BUT DID NOT UNDERSTAND THE MEANING BEHIND IT. BUT I DO REMEMBER FEELING SOMEWHAT GOOD AFTERWARD.
- Talking Working / Worked
- I SEE MY COUNSELLOR ONCE A WEEK. WE TALK, I AM CONSTANTLY CRYING, LIKE I'VE NEVER HAD A HAPPY MOMENT IN MY LIFE, BUT I CAN REMEMBER SOME. IT IS MY LIVING SITUATION THAT BRINGS ME DOWN, THE FIGHT WITH MY YOUNGER BROTHER, AND JUST A FEELING OF USELESSNESS!!
- \"Codependent No More\" Considering
- NOT SURE IF THIS APPLIES TO THE BOOK BY 'MELODY BEATTIE', BUT I STARTED TO READ IT, AND READ SOME OTHER ARTICLES, BUT JUST HAVE A HARD TIME WRAPPING MY HEAD AROUND IT.
