Journal Entry for October 17, 2009
October 17, 2009 11:47am
I lost my drivers license because of two impaired driving offenses. I have to bike or bus everywhere. It is getting cold out and I just don't …
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About Me
Recently both of my parents died within 9 months of each other and then the following year I lost my husband. I started abusing vicodin and any other opiates I could obtain legally. Three months ago I detoxed from all substances and now I have to face the grief and emotions I was trying to bury through drugs. I could not take that lifestyle anymore, always chasing after another prescription for opiates. I have two children ages 14 and 10 and my oldest son suffers from depression and he also does have trouble with his gall bladder that makes him nauseas most every day. He is having a difficult time getting to school and I am torn apart trying to get him there. He is a very smart kid, excels in math and science but he is missing his education and soon will be found truant. He is in counseling and I stay in touch with his teachers but I MUST FIND A WAY TO GET HIM TO GO TO SCHOOL EVERY DAY. Soon he will be found truant and the courts will take over. Any advice will be soooooooo appreciated. I haven't even touched much upon my problems because my son needs all of me to get through this teenage depression. He missed most of 8th grade when I was using opiates daily and I thought I was doing all I could, but now that I have my wits back I cannot allow him to miss his education. Please help us!!!!!!!!!!
Recently both of my parents died within 9 months of each other and then the following year I lost my husband. I started abusing vicodin and any other opiates I could obtain legally. Three months ago I detoxed from all substances and now I have to face the grief and emotions I was trying to bury through drugs. I could not take that lifestyle anymore, always chasing after another prescription for opiates. I have two children ages 14 and 10 and my oldest son suffers from depression and he also does
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sorry your feeling depressed, i just lost my dad to cancer, my mom has cancer and i am so afraid.
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: Clinical (Major) DepressionI have always taken on the caretaker role and now I need to take care of myself and my children. I am substituting food instead of drugs. I have gain over 30 pounds since I detoxed and although I exercise alot I am shoveling in food as quickly as I burn it off. I told most of my story above. The one thing I learned is that the only way you can kick a habit is for yourself. If you do it for someone else even for your kids it is not going to work.
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- Paxil Working / Worked
- Ive been on paxil for 10 years and my doctor feels I am on the right meds.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- I need weekly therapy. I am also in a support group that meets twice a week. I have no family nearby and so I depend on the support groups and therapy.
