gillianaw's Journal

Monday..I had a trying morning dealing with some difficult members of the public.  Knowing that my meeting would be straight after lunch, it was a little on my mind.  When it came, I was not able to remain cool!   Whatever it was, was not my fault, as there had been no instruction given me, but it still remains a policy investigation.  whatever will happen, will happen now, but at least I have a clear conscience. 

It has made me question whether I declare my dyspraxiia if I have to find another job, should my temporary contract not be renewed.   Up till now I have not declared it because I have not been formally diagnosed.  

I wonder if it would have been better if I had never have known.  I have developed my own strategies over my lifetime to counteract the disability I did not know I had.  Of course I struggled and sometimes I despaired that I couldn't seem to 'fit in' or learn new things easily etc.  But now I know it doesnt make it any easier, in fact I find I analyse things I do even more, and still get it wrong.  

Moving on....there are lots of things to look forward to and I am.