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firefly1960 
1:21am, November 7, 2009
I can barely wait to go to the doctor. I was putting it off because of the flu but may even get the shots when I am there. I am at such a weakened state. I have started taking vitamins. Been having real bad hot flashes. I only have one overy...probably quiting on me. I am going to talk to him about anti depressants. I have tried them before but they usually make me want to jump off a cliff. They scare me.
My daughter-in-law is trying to wean the baby. He is 5 months old and she feels like she is not healthy enough to do it. She has dropped to a size 0 jean from a 7 in less then three months. Any suggestions? She has tried all different formulas and he laughs at her. (Ha ha he is just like my son!) He yells until she nurses him then he looks at her and laughs. When I hold Chase I feel like I have Matt in my arms. I can't wait until he is weaned so I can baby sit for her and she can sneak away for awhile alone. She needs a break.
I made it through the day. It is getting a bit better at work. I still weep on the way there and it is still hard to focus but I am getting a lot more accomplished. I am still walking on very thin ice though and never know when I will fall through into the pool of grief beneath it.
Remember God promises there are no more tears in Heaven. See you soon my son.
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Maybe you should drink protein drinks or those drinks "Boost"...to get some calories. Be sure to tell your doctor about how the antidepressants made you feel before...he may know of different ones that will not affect you like that. You are doing good...just keep getting up each day and putting one foot in front of the other...you can do this. Love and hugs...Karen
biowoman
Has your daughter in-law seen a doctor lately? The weight loss is pretty severe and worries me. Seems like too much too quickly. Perhaps her doctor could recommend a treatment to help her regain some weight and offer suggestions for the baby as well. I've tried several antidepressants and some made me feel really strange, some made me feel very excited, like my heart was racing. Finally one was found that works well with my body. Talk to your doctor about your symptoms and fears. I'm sure there is something that will work for you too. I'm very proud of you for journaling. It's a big step and really helps in our healing. You are thought of each day, love, Teri.
RememberKala
Hoping the doctor can figure things out and help you get on something where you can feel better. I too worry about you dil. It sounds like that baby is taking every extra calorie from her and she needs those herself. Please take care of both of you. Much love. Robin
Robin4
Thanks, DIL has went to doctor they said it was normal. I don't know if he took into consideration that she has a nursing baby. We have the same doc. I am going to mention this to him on Thursday. You are all a great help to me.
firefly1960