the dirt is gone!!
November 22, 2009 6:15pm
Just Got back from the cemetary and the dirt was off the grave. The weight just lifted from my shoulder. I had felt anger all day as had all the rest …
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firefly1960
1:21am, November 7, 2009
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About Me
firefly1960
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About Me
I am a department manager at a retail store. I am married and have three kids. And 8 grand kids. my youngest child my only son, was killed in a car accident on August 28th, 2009. He left behind a 23 year old wife and two children. A girl 2.5 years old and a baby boy just 4 months old. we are so sad. I have two daughters and they have six children between them.
I am a department manager at a retail store. I am married and have three kids. And 8 grand kids. my youngest child my only son, was killed in a car accident on August 28th, 2009. He left behind a 23 year old wife and two children. A girl 2.5 years old and a baby boy just 4 months old. we are so sad. I have two daughters and they have six children between them.
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Interests
Family, gardening, motor cycle riding with my husband. I would love to be a stay at home wife again!!
Family, gardening, motor cycle riding with my husband. I would love to be a stay at home wife again!!
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Recent Activity
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21 hugs given, 18 hugs received, 9 journal posts, 7 journal comments, 5 photo uploads
Yesterday
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firefly1960 gave Sunrogsmon a little love 9:42pm
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firefly1960 gave KarenR1955 a present 9:39pm
A gift for your kindness have a good night~Julie…
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firefly1960 gave redheadedgranny a sympathy 9:37pm
I am sorry if all of your loss has made you bitter and harsh. I know that grief can make a person angry.…
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firefly1960 gave KarenR1955 flowers 9:27pm
You are so nice to be here for me. I know one day I will be stronger. I am usually very strong...this…
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firefly1960 wrote a journal entry: the dirt is gone!! 6:15pm
Just Got back from the cemetary and the dirt was off the grave. The weight just lifted from my shoulder.…
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Faith
November 22, 2009 4:35pm
Yes I have faith. I have believed and loved the Lord all my life. Yet I am so confused where my faith is concerned now. I feel betrayed,. I …
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I hate to delete people
November 22, 2009 2:02am
I just deleted a person from my friends list. I don't like to be snotty but this person has been being really nasty with their comments. Almost …
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Losing it!!
November 21, 2009 8:56pm
ok so now I think I am losing my mind...nuts!! I came home from work and my husband told me that the lady who is being buried next to Matt died and …
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Just as I predicted
November 21, 2009 1:00am
The fog was terrible this morning. I couldn't get myself to leave the house. I stood paralized with my hand on the door and told myself I HAD TO …
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Thanks
Thank you for your love, I will pray for you, God Bless xxxx
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Rainbow
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Little Love
I have read your journal entries and send every ounce of love that I can send, there is nothing on earth that can be worse than losing a child. I have not been in that situation and I know that I cannot possibly know how it feels, but I do know that it would break a heart in two. Dear friend, please take care and may God Bless you and your daughter in law and babies xxxx
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Prayer
To: firefly1960
Sent : 11/22/09, 5:48 pm
Subject: Re: Hello
Julie,
I read your journal today and you portrayed me as brutal. That is fine, I can take it, it is coming from your grief. I would never in a million years compare losing a loved one like losing an animal. I was only trying to get you to understand you are making yourself sick and your son would not want that. You need to see a doctor to help you get rest, which will in turn help your grief take its normal course, which is what I told you on chat. You are so angry that you are not taking care of yourself. How any of this can be brutal is beyond me. I am a Faithful Christian as well, and I was trying to help.
God Bless you
On 11/22/09, 02:09am firefly1960 wrote:
It is not anything personal just not what I need to hear. I have not had a full night sleep in since aug 28. I have lost 35 lbs. I am sick. You must not know the pain if I am feeling since you can say these things. The other moms feel like me and are helping me. I can't just get over it like he was a dog. He is my baby.
So thanks for trying but I am not ready for what you rae saying.
I am a Faithful Christian...just so you know.
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Prayer
thank you for your kind words and I pray that God gives you strength as your wound is so fresh. I am happy to have you as my new friend. Barb.
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Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a ChildMy son Matt was killed in a car crash on 08/28/09. I feel like I died with him. He left behind a young wife and two babies under three years old.
Treatments
- Crying Too Soon to Tell
- I cry all the time. At the drop of a hat.
- Grief Counseling Too Soon to Tell
- My husband and I went once. It helped a bit.
- Keeping Busy Not Working
- I am so depressed I don't feel like leaving my family.
- Music Too Soon to Tell
- I find myself listening to Matt's music.
- Prayer Somewhat Helpful
- it is hard to pray.
- Remembering Somewhat Helpful
- He is all I think about
- Support Groups Too Soon to Tell
- Just signed on here. There are no groups close by.
- Talking Not Working
- No one really understands and most people think I should just get over it.
