ccdo's Journal

right dinner time it was for me. so i sat there eating slowly and small bites. everyone finished and i sat there waitin for them to disapppear they didnt

i went over to get a glass of water and my mum said "stop with all this shit" so we both went back to the table i grabbed the glass and smashed it on the table and i said "i dont take anymore of this bullshit im not able for it"

so my dad walked in and said waht happened and my mum said "the glass slipped out of her hand" and he believed her lies. why she covered up for me ill never know but what i do know is now ive come to the stage of takin my aggression out on people by smashin things in the house to let them know i cant take insults anymore 

i also warned my mum bout 10mins ago keep talking they way u are and u will be sorry. i also said dont even push or tempt me and then she kept quiet probably coz the fact she is scared now of me coz deep down she knows what im capable of in gettin what i want with my body and that im not goin to let her force food down my neck no matter how many insults or arguments or aggression the family show 

ill always have my blade to save me and also when i get the chance any day during work goin to drink myself silly and torture my pscyahitrist with exactly what she should her from a patient that has not been listened to or even helped i